" Sweet Indulgance"

Day by day you think of something brilliant to say, but the words won't come out right. Everytime you see her she looks better and better. You wonder as time goes on can she? Will she be the star that your eyes gaze upon in the dreams of your mind at night fall. With each kiss it paints a beautiful picture of what could possibly lie beneath, Internally i'm all over the place, hands shaking, lips quivering with wordless breaths. I try to restrain all the love I have to give inside of me until the right time. My feelings are no match for my actions. I size up all my fear as I turn to her ready to speak my heart to her as if it was the last thing I was able to do. If my heart can't breathe without you then I don't want to love, if my brain can't function without you then I don't wanna dream, if my love can't caress you then I don't wanna exist. Our love is like a mist thin as air but refreshing like white lillys in the sun garden. Every morning I awake with you at thought my sweet indulgance as you are to me, I love you without even knowing how to love myself. I put you first before I think of me last, we have grown together yet so distant. Our love has wondered in the fields never finding its way back home. I love you for tomorrow as today is already gone, as I vanish from your heart I stick with you through my soul, I know you love me but no longer than a second can you replenish the hours i've stored for our love.