3 19


  • Sadness

    3 19

    Three nineteen, the clock still ticking

    Bloody scabs I was picking

    No one’s up and I am bored

    All wrapped up in a single cord

    Simply sleep, I took so many

    Stronger pills, I haven’t any

    A little drowsy, but not enough

    Just enough to call your bluff

    I may lay down and close my eyes

    And toss and turn to my surprise

    Those stupid pills they do not work

    Just make my legs ache and jerk….

    I must have slept because I awoke

    As I cough, and as I choke

    It’s not important the night before

    Tonight I start to drink some more

    A tasty drink to make me numb

    All in all it makes me dumb

    Again depressed and disappointed

    I still haven’t got what I wanted

    It feels so close but so far away

    I can never make the joy just stay

    As I live this day without you,

    Hoping it’s only just a few

    Deeply thinking of what’s to come

    Fears inside splashed with rum

    I know I may never see you

    That the fear screams so true

    So what if I never hold you

    Nothing as if you knew

    I live today, dead as I am

    And close the door with a slam

    All alone like so many nights

    As I turn off all the lights

    To myself to bored to care

    Awakened thoughts that seem to tare

    My mind is crying and I know why

    I hate my life and I want to die



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    In science one tries to tell people, in such a way as to be understood by everyone, something that no one ever knew before. But in poetry, it's the exact opposite.

    Franz Kafka (1883-1924) Czech writer.

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