You don’t understand this pain,

You don’t understand how hard it is just to make them happy,

They never appreciate it; it’s what is expected,

Pure perfection

I feel so alone,

No wonder I’m changing.

I saw the change, but thought nothing of it,

Nowhere to turn, no one to listen.

I don’t care anymore,

I was driven to fill a void,

So I did, now look at what I’ve done,

I’ve gone and messed this life up,

Now everyone around me suffers with me,

I was trying to find a solution,

But it was a temporary problem,

And now I’m more alone than before,

You aren’t here

And I need you to be,

I need to hear your voice,

See your face,

I need you to hug me and tell me

It’s all going to be okay,

I am so sick of this everyday feeling,

I never feel good anymore,

I wake up in the morning,

I don’t think good things,

Instead,

“Great another day, can we not do this again?”

I have this constant war going on between

The world and myself, and well

Quite frankly, the world has its hold on me,

Slowly ever so slowly pulling me in,

Winning.

I’m pushed so far past my breaking point,

I just want to let it all go,

Lose complete control,

There’s so much pain,

Fear and loneliness

Hidden within in this smile.

Look beyond the forced laughs and smiles

You’ll find tear-filled eyes.

A constant battle goes on between

Myself and my emotions,

Well my emotions have gotten the best of me,

I don’t even wanna be here anymore,

I can’t handle myself,

I’m doing everything on my own,

Why because no one cares anymore,

My so called friends,

They don’t care,

They act like it,

But I can see through it,

I know the difference between something fake

And something genuine,

If I don’t get things straightened out,

Well I may go completely insane,

I need help for God’s sake,

Nobody will give me the help

Or the advice

They just stare and laugh,

I’m so tired of life in itself,

Do you have any idea what it is like?

To cry out for help and

No one even hear you,

Or if they do, call it off like it’s

A whisper in the wind

I mean seriously?

I’m trapped and I’m trying so hard,

Trying so hard just to dig myself out,

But instead I’m getting in deeper and deeper,

I may as well up now,

But don’t be alarmed,

This isn’t a suicide note,

Not even a goodbye,

This is a plea, a cry out, a need,

For help,

And I need you now more than ever,

I hope that you care and love me enough

To help me,

Somehow, someway.