A game of hide and seek...

Ok Lord, so will you please show yourself to me? 
Or have you already & im just to deaf & blind to see?
I dont understand this nightmare im forced to live in,
Am i not qualified to succeed in this world full of sin? 

I know im far from perfect & yes ive made my mistakes,
But i am tired of feeling like a pile of shit on a dirty plate,
I am worn out & i am tired of getting Used & beaten,
Everyday i get stabbed repeatedly & violently, it never ends... 

I am broken & I need your help here Lord,
I feel like Im road kill as a scavenger mangles a dead bird, 
Im to worn out & to angry to read your words,
My life is all but a bare mist of existence in a world totally absurd,

I see the good & the bad all in the same darkness,
Everytime i see the light, I put up an intense fight till im outta breath,
Im so used to living in the dark with the demons,  
That i push away all the good that try’s to enter in....

But Lord, I am old and fed up and we need change,
I am tired of being a victim & chained to this cage,
Prisoners are far more free then i feel I’ll ever be,
I am tired of being treated like a peice of meat...

Ive been beaten for so long that now I look & feel like porky the pig,
And this pig cant afford to have surgeries due to me being so danm big, 
It is draining my health & ability to fight the enemys, 
Also Ive been on the choppin block for so long that time is of the essence...

Are you willing to heal my wounds and cover my scars??
I know you are the king and the keeper of the stars,
I need an angel to help lift us up & show us unending love,
Lord show us a way out of this hell or send us home with you above......