why did you leave me you were the first woman i ever saw as able for me to love as a mother.
you think because i thought it best not to be adopted that i didnt still want you as a mother.
i know i have fucked up in your eyes but you have done so in mine too.
you say you gave me all i wanted but all i asked for was you.
everything else never mattered.
i wish you could see. you were suppose to support me when i made a mistake.
instead you just degraded me because i didnt learn my lesson from what you told me.
and even when you didnt agree with my choices you were still suppose to help me acheive
the goals through dediction and the love of a family. i never wanted to leave but i felt you only kept me
out of pity in the end because you always told me i was fucked up instead of showing me right
you put me down for the wrong. i love you sorry i wasnt what you want and that because i am not
your flesh and blood you feel you can disown me after already committing to always love me.