Alone in the End

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  • Childhood

    Alone in the End

    Dust, a particle of being
    I'm drifting, lost in space,
    Blackness consuming my soul

    Doesn't matter,
    Not now, nothing does
    Cos it's just me, alone

    S'pose it was always going to end this way
    You gone, lost beneath the earth
    Or drifting on the wind
    Blown or beaten into ash,
    While I flesh and bones
    Linger on,

    I never went to see you,
    Well not since your coffin
    Fell, ungraceful, silent in its tomb,
    Promised I would come,
    This year at least
    Ten years you know
    Since I saw you,

    I was just a child then
    Didn't understand, maybe
    If I had been a better child
    A better person
    You wouldn't have left me,
    Alone, so back to that,
    That cruel, quick word
    Slips off the tongue,
    To blanket the world's screams,

    I remember my one last hope,
    The moment I saw two paths,
    Life was clear for one moment,
    But I barely four
    Did not understand what I saw,

    The words I spoke in fear
    Should never have been uttered,
    The story I let slip
    Not from my fairy tales,
    That was long ago,
    When I still saw in black and white,
    And couldn't see concequences,
    Didn't even know the word,
    But still, ignorance
    Does not cover all sins,

    If I had said nothing
    You would have lived,
    What is one child's unknown happiness
    Compared to life itself?
    Nothing,

    If I could only
    Rewind my clock
    My life, forfet
    For you,
    All for you and him,
    The dreams you forged
    Before I entered your life
    Murder, crime, punishable by death
    So I offer all I can
    But it's not enough
    And I'm alone
    The only penance I can pay
    Until the final day
    When I offer the last of what remains,
    For a forgiveness I don't deserve,

    But child who cowered in a corner
    Now takes the stand,
    She steps for the final move
    Checkmate,
    A life for a life
    Reversed,
    Time,
    Dead,
    The End

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    Poetry is not a turning loose of emotion, but an escape from emotion.

    T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American-English poet and playwright.

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