There is nothing more Valid than time wasted

All of the energies lost and found in spending it

On absolutely nothing and nowhere

Not moving and running all at the same time

And even after all of the mediocrity

Somewhere within the confines of catastrophic imperfections

There lies an untapped reservoir of still

A vessel that connects to great and powerful wonders

This is the impulse that gives life a beat

That is the true defined rhythm of existence

Beautiful movement in all its fluidity

….Somewhere standing alone and unloved

There was you in the midst

My catastrophe sweeping away debris like the motions of God

And for a time, my tears were spilled into your hand

My dearest vessel

And I was connected to something more than tragedy

Something braver than my own insecurities

With you I would fly

From the richness of your laughter

I could smile

The extension of your grace

I was alive

From the bounty of your spirit

I was free

Within you I was uninhibited

There was nothing to hold me back

And now neither will there be for you

In my selfish haste,

I was eager to have you stay

Because my mortal mind could never comprehend your sudden departure

And Gods need for you there

In a space and time that perceives no limits

And exceeds all bounds

Your works were greater than this life

And to have known you at all

I am humbled

Counting the days, the seconds, and the memories

Time won’t allow me to forget or ignore the silence that fell between us

I miss you more than words now

But was angry and hurt then

Too much time slipped away

And now that you’re gone, there is no way to make it right

I could rearrange the entire alphabet to put letters that could attempt to create something meaningful

But none will do

You are a beautiful woman

And you were a work of fine art all your own

An extended masterpiece

A breathtaking reflection of Gods glory

That lit up the world

And I am grateful

One of the sweetest, dearest creatures I had ever known

I will carry you with me in my heart forever

Farewell my love