I smile, Yet I know it means nothing,
People chose to see my fake side,
Why notice my faults?
Why would someone want to see,
My totaly broken down insides?
Why would you want to see your,
Sister, your Daughter,your bestfriend suffer?
People dont want to know of the pain they caused me,
Now they only push it away?
For why look at the truth when A lie will make you happier?

I you all see it but chose to igonore it,
Why would you want to see the scars that may have been your doing?
They still fight even though They Know it hurts me.
Words hurt more then broken bones and bruises.
I ask myself what ever did I do wrong?
A small voice whispers
everything, everything is wrong about you!
I hate it!

Everynight I say good night but sleep wont come easly.
The walls of my room threating to consume me,
The night I can be me.
I dont have to hide from my emotains.

I can belive my dreams are real,
where im not bent and broken.
I still belive.
Even though I feel as if all hope is gone.
No matter how many times I just dont want to wake up,
I am forced from my sleep.
I ask my self why dont they just let me sleep?
Why must I walk in waking life,
And not the world of  my dreams?
Now I must belife one day I will achive my goals.