once again i turn one year older
but i feel younger in a way
is it insecurity?...... no
low self esteem?.......... no
fear of what is to come?....... some what.
fear of who i can become with all these possibilities.... no?
OK ya...

im 18 now

but my anger started when i was about 7 years old
i would get into fights
i would lie like it was nothing
like it was a game and i always wanted to win
at about 12 i started to smoke
i also started to cut at 12

but I'm 18 now

it seems like there is so much pressure on me now
to do the right things
to be the right person
i cant get into fights any more ill get put in jail

its so easy for me now to smoke
when i know i don't want to take the chance of being addicted

the pressure is so heavy know
its slowly killing me
i cant stop thinking about it
its consuming me
its like a virus
eating at everything i do
its killing me 
and 
all i can
do 
is 
.
.
.
cry