Eyes are dry now but they’ll be wet again
When he’s breaking my heart by bruising my skin
Reawakening the bruises that he’s caused within
Trying to make it seem as though it is not a sin
When
He hits or tries to bruise my physical
He's steady bruising my mental and my spiritual

I’m thinking that it's time for me to just let go
Let go of his body and get rid of his lies
But his eyes…?
They won't let me know freedom
So deep, so beautiful making me never wanna leave ‘em
Cuz this? This is only love I've ever known
The only man I've ever shown…
All of me
And…I'm scared to be alone

But, I'm scared even worse when he gets home
Scared that he'll hurt me
Or break me
Or scream
Or shake me
From my head to my heart…
All the way down to my core

Sore;
That's my body
And Bruised;
That’s my mind
So torn and tormented
Because of the way he makes me cry
Even though I love him
No one will understand
They won't get that I
Never had anyone hold my hand
…Until him
No one else can ever feel me
But I can feel him

Only he
Was listening
When I needed someone to reach out
In the beginning when I first fell he would let me speak out
Vividly, Vibrantly
And without restraint
He loved me; he’d vibe with me
And never complain

But since THAT day…?
I’ll never forget…
The change in his eyes when I spoke a little too slick
The look that he gave me that shook my insides
And before I could cry
He struck the side of my face…
And all the self esteem I once possessed was replaced
With a disgrace
That has stained my soul

And now every day
I cry
And every night I die
A little more
Wondering how
I let him tear me down from a woman I was before
To the scared little girl I am now
Knowing that somehow
The “love” has been forever changed now
Even deranged now
And so strained now

And I often wonder how
I let him bruise my stomach…arms…eyes…
He bruises my spirit…my existence…my life
And he’s bruised all the times
The memories that we've shared
Because all the things we've cared about together?
Will never, never matter again
Because being abused by the one you crave = dying slowly within
And he’s even bruised my sense of trust
Because he‘s bruised what I thought was a safe, secure love
But, even though my body and the love is bruised
And I know, I might not live to form another smile
I still love him...
Regardless of the fact that he's got me crying again right now...