I was lying in bed for three hours now and for some reason I couldn’t find the best position to put myself to sleep. My mind is wandering somewhere and I have nothing else to do but type so I can use some energy to somehow help me doze off. I can hear the silence of the night and the snoring of my Dad. I kind of feel envious because he’s already partying in the dream land! Maybe it’s the coffee’s fault why I’m still wide awake…or maybe someone’s thinking of me…or, well I don’t know what else to say.

I already bugged a good friend of mine for an hour and thirty-five minutes and I’m sorry for that. (Thanks, Zion!) But I still couldn’t put myself to sleep. I am thinking of hitting my head on the wall or turning around for hundred times because they’re the best solutions I could think of at the moment. I really am desperate to sleep now because I have to wake up mad early tomorrow (or should I say, later). Again, I’m blaming the coffee for making me feel this way!

I am thinking of bugging other friends but at some point I’m also thinking of the consequence. They will surely delete me in their friend’s list for wrecking their good night sleep if I do that. So again, I don’t have any choice but type and talk to myself. I’m still thinking of hitting my head on the wall and turning for hundred times till I passed out. But I’ll save them for later. They’re the best ideas I’ve got and I have to prepare for that!

But at some point I’m also thinking of the blessings I’ve got in my life. I couldn’t help but wonder how a lame person like me deserves the greatest blessings from above. Maybe God really is merciful! And I’m thankful for that!

For some reason there’s this phrase I was thinking about since yesterday. I don’t know where I exactly heard it from. But it doesn’t matter.

“You can’t make an omelette without breaking the eggs”.

I don’t think I am fond of that statement. I don’t know what it exactly means. I’m curious to know the real meaning of it. Of course! If you want to make an omelette you have to break the eggs first. Without breaking it, how could you use them? How could you make an omelette? Am I making sense? Well I don’t care…my real intention right now is to put myself to sleep.

But wait a minute. I think I’m getting it. Yeah I get it! Of course! If we relate it to our life it means that we have to be broken before we can become whole again. Yeah! You can’t make an omelette without breaking the eggs! Huh! (If you get it, please kindly raise your hands!)

Things have to get worse before they can get better. We have to see through the darkest of nights so we can glimpse the most beautiful sunrise. We have to admit our weaknesses, and only by then can we realize our true strengths.

Stones have to be chiseled as a masterpiece is sculpted. Canvasses dirtied with paint and pieces of crumpled paper surround an artist’s and a writer’s best works.

And so it is with our lives. This is not the easiest way to become a better person. But as long as this helps me become who I aspire to be, I have no reason to complain.

Ok I’m just thinking too deep now. And I must admit I’m talking nonsense! It really is the coffee’s fault!

The hell with it! I really am desperate now! I’m now left with my two great ideas.

If I’m still awake for the whole day tomorrow (today), I’ll blame the coffee for the rest of my life!