TODAY I AWOKE WITH SOMETHING IN MY THROAT
I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA CHOKE
SHOOT I THINK I DIED WAY DOWN INSIDE

.I WASN'T ME NO MORE SOME HOW
I LOST MY MOJO OH NO I CRIED
I HOPE IT WASN'T ME THAT DIED.

MY SPIRIT LEFT I CAN FEEL THE EMPTINESS INSIDE,
I KNOW I AM BROKEN AND DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIX IT
NO MATTER WHAT I DO
MY MIND IS SPLIT IN TWO AND MY SPIRIT IS ALL BLACK AND BLUE.
SO...
I DECIDED TO LET MY GOD FIX IT FOR ME.
SEE...
NO ONE KNOWS THAT INSIDE OF ME THERE IS NOTHING THERE BUT PAIN, DEPRESSION AN ANGER AND HATE
WHY MY OUT LOOK IS BLEAK AND DESOLATE,
THAT I WANT TO HURT AS I AM HURTING,
HATE AS I AM LOVED

IT IS SO EASY TO DESTROY
BUT BETTER TO BUILD IN GODS NAME
THAN TO DESTROY IN SATAN'S NAME,
BUT WHO IS TO BLAME?
THAT MY LIFE IS SO LAME, I
KNOW I HAVE NEVER HAD TO HANG MY HEAD IN SHAME
GUESS GOT UP CAUGHT IN LIEFS GAME

NO ONE SEES THE MADNESS THAT IS SWIRLING AROUND ME.WAITING, WAITING JUST WAITING
TO DEVOUR ME UP IN ITS MURKINESS
SO THICK THAT I AM SOME HOW ALWAYS SICK
I SEEM TO STAY ILL
PUSHING ME TO DESTROY
NO BETTER YET KILL
NAH..
BETTER I WAIT UNTIL GOD CAN GIVES ME BACK MY MOJO
OR SHALL I SAY MY SWAGGER.
MAYBE THAT'S WHAT AWOKE ME THIS MORNING
AN EMOTIONAL DAGGER IN MY THROAT
HMMM....
MAYBE THAT'S WHY I COULDN'T BREATHE
I HAD TO FIND SOMETHING TO READ
SOMETHING TO BELIEVE IN
SOMETHING TO RELIEVE ME
SOMETHING I COULD HOLD ONTO
THERE IT WAS OLD RELIABLE MY BIBLE GODS WORD IS ALWAYS VAIABLE
SEE...
IN THERE IT SAYS FROM GENESIS TO REVELATION GOD KNOWS ALL THE MOVES AND ALL THE TRICKS AND EVEN THIS BROKEN MISUSED SOUL CAN BE FIX.
SEE....
THAT'S WHY I AM MAD AND ALWAYS FEELING SAD
I KEEP FIGHTING GOD AND NOT LET HIM DO HIS JOB.
WITH THIS ABUSE AND THE THINGS THAT I CHOOSE I AM ALWAYS GONNA LOSE
SO I CHOSE HIM
NOW...
JUST WATCH HIS WORK BEGIN
I PROMISE TO LIVE MY LIFE FREE OF SIN.
I CAN'T KEEP GOING THROUGH THIS MESS AGAIN AND AGAIN.

EVEN IF YOUR CHILDREN DON'T LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY OR UNDERSTAND YOU
OR..
YOUR MAN OR WOMAN DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE THERE FOR YOU OR APPRECIATE WHAT AND WHO YOU ARE

I MUST TELL YOU ALWAYS LIVE LIFE TO REFLECT GOD WHOSE ALWAYS THERE EVEN WHEN AT TIMES YOU ARE AT YOUR DARKEST MOMENTS AND YOU FEEL LIKE THERE IS NO PURPOSE TO YOUR LIFE
YOU MUST REMEMBER EVEN AS THE MONTHS GO BY FROM JAN TO DECEMBER YOU BELONG TO GOD YOUR A SPECIAL FAMILY MEMBER.