i can feel the life beign sucked out of me, like a sponge excreting its water.
now i feel pain being pushed into me further and further.
oh man how it hurts from my head to my toes,and man what a shame, shame, shame.
see you dont feel it because your life, no its not like mine, because nothing about us is the same.
you seeme as the little church boy, i see me as the barbarian, an outsider, someone with two left feet.
i see you as someone i cant talk to, even though you are family.
life sucks, yes its full of bull shiot lies, and thats how i see my future made up of.
and meanwhile everybody prays to the good man up above.
Heaven. some question wether it exist anymore, while others say" i want to go there one day"
but how can it exist if we live like hell, how when we live this way?
he said, she said, they say, i heard them say this about you, qand you believe this bull shit madness???
how can i still believe, when my dreams are just filled with sadness.
my praise is supposed to outweigh all the bad, but still to see what i see you would feel just as sad.
heartbreak hotel, dippin in and out, fucking in different motels. shit it like a crack head gone cold turkey.
i need the sex, so bad it hurts me.
let your light so shine before all men that they may see our good works is what the bible insist, that we can make others undertsand.
contridiction, i thought that we werent supposed to please man, but god, not flesh.
all i believe is starting to fade away.
sister hates me brother beats up an old lady because he loves to procrastinate? fuck it i didnt pay to get this life. no sweat, no tears, and blood didnt fall for this hurtness, atleats not this way.
once again its fading away cant continue to live this, i must get away for this life
shiiiit, i even thought that once upon a time....her.....she could be my wife.
depression is smoething that is going to reach and touch us all at one point in this life time.
alnd all it takes is to speak whats on your mind,
life death its a cycle that will never stop going, keeps going aound and around...i just dont know why.
so life is what i live for and perfection is what i continue to strive.....