Dear Heavenly Father....

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Dear Heavenly Father....

Dear heavenly Father,
Do you hear my prayers?? 
Are you on vacation stranded up stairs??
I know i dont deserve your Love,
I often dont feel it near enuf... 
i hope i dont jinx myself into more of a nightmare,
But i swear there is no one who truly cares???
I dont mean to question your judgement and plans,
But i feel as if i am married to satan
And although i am the victim,
I am treated like the criminal like the demons AM, 
I get no respect or appreciation 
And no one understands my situation...
Lord what am i to do??
Where are you??
Am i bound to hell and torture forever??
Its hard for me to forgive others?? 
But Lord you know why & i have no need to lie?? 
Will you forgive me when i die?? 
There is no hope, no help, no one to talk to but you,
But i dont think im worthy of your love or your crew??
I know you put Angels in my life,
Some are sweet like sugar and others cut like a knife...
Will i always endure harship and strife???
Or will you allow me to have a family and be a wife?? 
Lord i am chained to satan & i am lonely, 
Will you please rescue me and comfort me??? 
I am locked in hell with only words of torture to tell, 
I feel no encouragement or way out of this deep dark well,
its slippery in here & you are my only help i know
Even though its hard for.me to forgive & let the past go, 
It follows me around like a plague of poisoness bugs,
Aint no escaping this hell,
its addictive like alcohol & drugs,
Only time will tell as my brain swells... 
I am not free and I have no choices to choose,
No matter which way i go, i ALWAYS LOSE....
Lord i may not have nothing at all
And I am chained to this wall only to you i call,
But it seems satan intervines my messages to you
And i feel as if i am always going to be his cooked goose..
But Lord you Gave me the best gift of all,
A child to love so i wont feel so raw,
So why Lord am i still Satans mistress,
Why am i everything but blessed??? 
Dont we deserve a home on earth too?? 
Why am i always used and abused, battered & bruised??
Lord do you have room for me up there??
Or am i just a mistake taking up precious air??
I admit im worthless and a failure! 
I know im a sinner and my life is all but a blurry curse,
But is there any hope for me here on earth???
Lord i need your guidance,
cuz well you know im an IDIOT
So i need extra assistance.. 
Only you can help me if ya wanna, 
i beg and plead cuz satan is a piranha, 
And i have been his breakfast, lunch & dinner for 36 yrs
Its time I break the chains & end this torture,
He needs to be the victim at his own game
He needs to feel his own flames & hang,
Lord will you give me the strength & wisdom i need
To hang satan & torture him & watch him bleed???
He deserves more then he dishes out to us Christians,
He needs punished for.making us commit sins,
Lord I REALLY NEED YOUR HELP HERE,
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME RELEIVE MY FEARS..
whatever i need to do Lord to earn your trust again,
I will bend over backwards for you to be my friend,
To help me control my life & get my daughter to listen,
And hopefully you have plans
For me to be with a wonderful loving man...
i am old and extremely cold Lord Jesus My Savior,
I need you more then ever.... 



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Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words.

Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

Worthless’s Poems (107)

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Screw you ju-LIE 0
Blessed be the Dead... 0
Silent words slowly heard.... 0
Fuck you satan!!! 0
Wake up Sunshine... 0
God has a plan.... 0
Unscrambled word pool... 0
Here we go again.... 1
Call me please???? 0
Your dancing a path to my heart... 0
Will you be my valentine?? 0
Words... 0
A game of hide and seek... 2
Last Breath 0
Justice system, My A$$.... 1
Satans slave 0
Dear Daughter, My Sweet Princess... 0
Is there really hope??? 1
Dear Heavenly Father.... 0
Deep in the depths of hell... 0
Waiting in torture for you to call.... 0
I dont understand...
.
0
Children.... 0
Butterflies in the sky... 0
Fire ant on Rampage... 0
Grocery store Hottie... 0
LORD, I NEED YOU!!!!!! 1
Young Love 0
I Barely Know You... 1
missing you today, tomorrow and forever... 0
HOME SWEET HOME 6
Faithful Mysteries... 3
A Nightmare without a Care... 3
A CURSE FROM HELL.... 2
I HATE COMPUTERS 0
Satans Game of Pain... 1
TODAY AND ALWAYS 2
I sit here and wait 5
mother nature 2
I MISS MY FRIEND! (read again & read between the lines last) 2
I Need a Good Nights Rest... 1
Now I know my A,B,C's!!! 3
Love Life.. (Short Story) 1
hmmm 0
Mystery Man... 3
The Empty Closet 2
Death And Life Combined 0
He's playing games with me! 0
Pen and Paper 4
MEN AND B(*)(*)BIES??
???
4
Men 4
HANG WITH ME 1
Humans.. 1
I Got A Feeling... 1
Go To Bed My Ugly Friend.. 1
A Father's Voice 2
Love Does NOT EXIST 1
HELL 4
Help Me 10
High On Lies 6
I Hate You Luke 5
Connect the Tears 1
Blood Tears 1
Disappearing Memory 2
Forclosure 4
Mouse Hunting 4
Nothing Left 3
I wanna... 2
30 Minute Meal 3
So, Folks 2
This Hill I stumble upon... 2
STRENGTH 9
I LOVE... 4
Feelings of Imagination and truth... 2
Who Am I? 7
I Don't have time 2
Dear Mr. President 4
STAB ME In the HEART PLEASE! 2
LONG AND DRAWN OUT 0
Girly Girl... 1
A Seed in Bloom... 0
Deathly Pissed... 0
Life 2
Is this what you call a home? 2
Love is fake? 2
March 27... 1
FAT & UGLY!!! 3
Loving You Still? 4
Opening Day... 1
My sister and Me... 6
Boyfriend Lies? 0
What do you care what's wrong with me? 2
Tied to the sheets that make me bleed... 4
What do I do? You leave me so confused... 0
The Love of A Child... 4
Sleep Tight... 1
Letter to You, Not knowing who... 1
Kids... 1
I GIVE UP!!!! 5
A love that ain't there 1
A new lust, not love... 1
Is there anything you need today? 1
JOBS (NOT FOR ME APPARENTLY) 3
Never Enuf 1
Real Man 2
God is Here 2
Worthless 4