for a long time...

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for a long time...


ive been telling myself for a long time that it is going to be ok
and for a long time it has not been ok
ive been told for a long time that im going to be ok
and for a long time i have NOT been ok


ive been telling myself for a long time that i am going to get better
and for a long time i have not gotten better
i have been told for along time that i am going to get better
and i dont feel like i have gotten any better


ive been telling myself for a long time that i am going to wake up
and for a long i have remained asleep
i have been told for a long time that my eyes are going to open
and for a long time i have walked around blind


ive been telling myself for a long time that this nightmare is going to end
and for a long time this nightmare has not ended
i have been told for a long time that the this nightmare will pass
and for a long time i have still been haunted by it


ive been telling myself for a long time that my pain will pass with time
and for a long time my pain has remained
i have been told for a long time that time will heal my wounds
and for a long time my wounds have continued to bleed


ive been telling myself for a long time that i can get past the dark
and for a long time i have been overshadowed
i have been told for a long time that i can see past this dark
and for a long time i have not been able to see the light


ive been telling myself for a long time that i am strong enough to overcome
and for a long time i have not been able to fight
i have been told for a long time that i do indeed have the strength
and for a long time i have fallen too weak to try

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NativeAmeriGirl commented on for a long time...

04-07-2010

Again, such a wonderment of emotion!!! So much so it truly gripped my emotions and ripped my soul........ Know from someone who truly knows, It Does Get Better and You Will Get Stronger!!! Muchas gracias for sharing!!!

Dano

04/09/2010

thanks for taking the time to read and comment

miry commented on for a long time...

03-27-2010

I have been there myself...but time has proven that I am strong enough, and I can survive just about anything...I am hoping to see a sequel to this poem....a positive one :)

Dano

03/27/2010

thank you for commenting miry... i hope that i am able to write a sequal to this

SavVySam commented on for a long time...

03-14-2010

We see the strength of you in this piece...we see you face unflinchingly face the nightmare...we see you stand, and write of disparaging thoughts... we see the strength in your sharing, through this others will understand and not feel alone...we see...write on!

Dano

03/27/2010

thank you sam... for taking the time to read and for sharing your thoughts....

Springsize commented on for a long time...

03-13-2010

Your poem is well thought-out, mechanically sound, and dynamic....... And your poem has evoked a reflection in me, as when it was never darker. I had to struggle to climb out, it was so not easy.... days I couldn't leave my house, days I couldn't move, days I didn't want to, turned into years. I did not get your dark, but I do feel just a small edge of your pain. Exposing is raw, but I make myself do it, not as good or as clearly as you... but when I write it out, I feel just a bit better than keeping it all in. I really do appreciate your ability to post such dark you, in public poems, I don't feel so alone in mine.

Dano

03/13/2010

thank you for reading... one thing that i have found in sharing my pain and darkness with people is that i am not alone as well and although i am still hurting there is a comfort in knowing that i am not the only one...

Rhymer commented on for a long time...

03-06-2010

Excellent write and such an enjoyable talent to read. 10 from me

Dano

03/09/2010

ive gotten behing in my comment replys... thank you for taking the time to read...

A poem begins as a lump in the throat, a sense of wrong, a homesickness, a lovesickness. It finds the thought and the thought finds the words.

Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

Dano’s Poems (150)

Title Comments
Title Comments
from an angels view 19
searching the darkness 10
a letter from santa 14
thanksgiving (acrostic) 12
the depth of... 11
ive wished 7
absentee 12
this is... 13
a journey into the dark 7
the cold of november 14
your voice 12
the yin to the yang 14
twisted 9
autumn 14
i think it happened again 11
luna~tic 19
the darkness 13
a blinding eclipse 16
the universe... 18
the wind of sorrow 14
my sorrow weeps 16
where but the dark... 12
immortal kiss 47
in a darkened room 17
our mother 7
within these flames 12
nocturnal (acrostic) classic rock 7
behind wrought iron bars 25
what i write (part 2) 8
today 17
the world in grey 6
the reality of... 5
in the shadow of a mountain 6
nothing will ever be the same 10
of cemetary dreams (and nightmare scapes) 12
next to a bed... 18
but... 15
at a funeral 12
seventeen (acrostic) 11
the fortunate one(s) 7
what did i do... 24
ashes to dust 45
dancing in the moonlight 14
disempowering the pain 14
the butterfly 10
what i write 14
sorry (i killed the after glow) 11
the humidity rises (an erotic tale) 9
pieces of light 8
the sad pumpkin &... 9
my face 12
for a long time... 14
(an explination of) distractions 6
tell me... 6
the charelston cookie tin 9
silent self destruction 8
exposed 13
the means of the day (a true valentines poem) 2
a poem about nothing... 8
blood bleeds black 7
dissecting myself 3
i will be just fine 3
the stacking of bricks 3
the complexities of depression... 4
spirits & ghosts 3
**random chaos** 2
bloodlust 3
...somethings missing... 2
15 years... 3
beauty sleeps entombed (parts 1 & 2) 3
**untitled** 2
the overstuffed closet 3
the candy dish 2
anxiety speaks 2
**untitled** 2
myself and the light 6
the fog 2
fire and tears 3
cerebral meltdown 3
sometimes i wish... 1
drawing strength from a starr... 2
disappointmen
t...
1
**untitled** 1
the flower garden 3
nature... 1
reaching out 2
the dark and the light... 1
the insistent demon 2
sorry... 3
forgive me lover... (parts 1 & 2) 2
im so sorry... 3
**no title... just random thoughts** 1
to eternity... 2
winter wind whips... 1
tired 2
lucid dream 1
the rains came... 2
the mourning light 1
another jagged pill 1
i just cant... 1
entitlement?!
?!?
1
entitlement!!
!!
1
burning within 4
inside of me 1
projected pain 1
the night... the dakness & the truth? 1
panic 2
the mourning fog 1
when the fires burn 1
through the night 1
shadow casts 0
a mournful rain 1
i cant protect me 2
my comfort place 0
an echo shifts 1
the monster 2
welcome to my life 0
the past is alive... 1
... 1
standing on the edge 2
my smile... 1
anxiety 2
my reality 0
another view... 0
untitled... 0
jagged pill 2
in the dark 1
what to do 1
how can i... 1
life... 3
a crust of pain 1
keeping me weak... 2
my dark world 3
another night of wondering 2
in the attic 4
i hold most dear 2
the me inside of me 2
another day 1
dreamed in a dream 2
a year in the life (dealing with death) 1
i look... 1
where my secrets are kept 1
a mouthful of words 2
i will not fear (when my eyes are blind) 2
i am aware (i'm already dead) 7
standing in the silence of my own shadow... 3
a blinding dark 1
growing pain 3
the longest of nights 5
... 7