for a long time...

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    for a long time...


    ive been telling myself for a long time that it is going to be ok
    and for a long time it has not been ok
    ive been told for a long time that im going to be ok
    and for a long time i have NOT been ok


    ive been telling myself for a long time that i am going to get better
    and for a long time i have not gotten better
    i have been told for along time that i am going to get better
    and i dont feel like i have gotten any better


    ive been telling myself for a long time that i am going to wake up
    and for a long i have remained asleep
    i have been told for a long time that my eyes are going to open
    and for a long time i have walked around blind


    ive been telling myself for a long time that this nightmare is going to end
    and for a long time this nightmare has not ended
    i have been told for a long time that the this nightmare will pass
    and for a long time i have still been haunted by it


    ive been telling myself for a long time that my pain will pass with time
    and for a long time my pain has remained
    i have been told for a long time that time will heal my wounds
    and for a long time my wounds have continued to bleed


    ive been telling myself for a long time that i can get past the dark
    and for a long time i have been overshadowed
    i have been told for a long time that i can see past this dark
    and for a long time i have not been able to see the light


    ive been telling myself for a long time that i am strong enough to overcome
    and for a long time i have not been able to fight
    i have been told for a long time that i do indeed have the strength
    and for a long time i have fallen too weak to try

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    NativeAmeriGirl commented on for a long time...

    04-07-2010

    Again, such a wonderment of emotion!!! So much so it truly gripped my emotions and ripped my soul........ Know from someone who truly knows, It Does Get Better and You Will Get Stronger!!! Muchas gracias for sharing!!!
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    Dano

    04/09/2010

    thanks for taking the time to read and comment

    miry commented on for a long time...

    03-27-2010

    I have been there myself...but time has proven that I am strong enough, and I can survive just about anything...I am hoping to see a sequel to this poem....a positive one :)
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    Dano

    03/27/2010

    thank you for commenting miry... i hope that i am able to write a sequal to this

    SavVySam commented on for a long time...

    03-14-2010

    We see the strength of you in this piece...we see you face unflinchingly face the nightmare...we see you stand, and write of disparaging thoughts... we see the strength in your sharing, through this others will understand and not feel alone...we see...write on!
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    Dano

    03/27/2010

    thank you sam... for taking the time to read and for sharing your thoughts....

    Springsize commented on for a long time...

    03-13-2010

    Your poem is well thought-out, mechanically sound, and dynamic....... And your poem has evoked a reflection in me, as when it was never darker. I had to struggle to climb out, it was so not easy.... days I couldn't leave my house, days I couldn't move, days I didn't want to, turned into years. I did not get your dark, but I do feel just a small edge of your pain. Exposing is raw, but I make myself do it, not as good or as clearly as you... but when I write it out, I feel just a bit better than keeping it all in. I really do appreciate your ability to post such dark you, in public poems, I don't feel so alone in mine.
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    Dano

    03/13/2010

    thank you for reading... one thing that i have found in sharing my pain and darkness with people is that i am not alone as well and although i am still hurting there is a comfort in knowing that i am not the only one...

    Rhymer commented on for a long time...

    03-06-2010

    Excellent write and such an enjoyable talent to read. 10 from me
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    Dano

    03/09/2010

    ive gotten behing in my comment replys... thank you for taking the time to read...

    Poetry is not the expression of personality but an escape from personality.

    T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American-English poet and playwright.

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