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    Goodbye

    Goodbye Mother, goodbye Father
    It is time to bid you farewell
    Do you know how hard this is?
    Have you ever felt this deep kind of pain?
    Mother you did not live to see your father fall
    Father you stood by two graves
    You wept for parents long gone
    As I weep for you.
    I have wanted to harden my heart
    Cut out reality so as to pave my future
    How could this dream last?
    A future with no real past is nothing
    Making me nothing
    Mother you saw your own grave
    You tried to ready me
    For this harsh world
    But I would not listen
    Please accept my apologies
    Else I will fade away and die.
    Goodbye now and forever
    These are the words that I would like to say to your stone
    I have put off my future for too long
    Now I must face it,
    Head on.
    I have visited your grave once
    Once in five long years
    I have made excuse that I hated the company
    While this is true I was only lying.
    Please forgive me now
    Now that I have nothing
    I will come and that will be it
    That will be when I move on
    Then I won’t care for forgiveness
    Then I won’t care for love
    Then I will be lost
    With no shepherd to find me
    I shall fall
    But not without leaving you
    I won’t drag you to the bottom
    I will come soon
    When I have courage enough
    To lose it all again, forever

    **

    Ten years
    And I have yet to come
    Not set foot
    In that place
    Father, I have felt you
    Flying free across the wind
    Cutting deep into me
    Mother, I miss you
    More than you could ever know
    I fear if we were to meet again
    I fear what you would say
    How you would scorn me so
    Shamed at what I have become
    But you left me
    After all my promises
    You were still taken
    My soul grazed yours
    In those final moment
    You reached out to say goodbye
    I reached out to hold on
    Maybe if I’d stayed
    So would you
    Maybe if I’d been a better child
    You would still love me
    You must hate me now
    Everything you taught me
    Everything dream you held
    Has been shattered by me
    I am nothing but a shadow
    Of some former hope
    True in form
    Lost in spirit

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    Poetry is not an expression of the party line. It's that time of night, lying in bed, thinking what you really think, making the private world public, that's what the poet does.

    Allen Ginsberg (1926-1997) U.S. poet.

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