Heart rants and life issues(not mine necessarily)

A new adventure begins as another birthday is begotten.
In each phase they say my state of mind is precarious.
When I'm two I'm terrible.
When I'm a teen my hormones aren't right.
When I'm an adult I'm distracted by trying to find my place in life.
When I'm 40 something I lost me looking for that place and now I'm going another search.
Is there any middle ground? When and where will I know I have arrived?
The blind cannot lead the blind and achievement for who?
I do even know WHO the helL I am or what I am looking for.
Now it's all going down like quicksand and I do want to make a stand.
But I don't know what I believe and it's been this way forever.
I hear I need to be delivered but that sounds like more problems.
Now I ask you what phase are you in and if we are here today isn't that the best place to begin?
For I have seen and still do that love can affect me and you.
These trials come because imperfection rages but I will keep searching for wisdom.