Hiding

There were so many times I smile at you,
but i smiled deep inside.
Afraid to reveal to much,
all that i had to hide.

The past that had been stripped away
by a tide that washed me dry.
And a past so dark and hesitant,
never knowing when to cry.

Under all the make-believe,
my smile is all I hide.
All the truth i keep from you
bottled deep inside.

I'm sorry that I've lied to you,
I'm sorry that I'm weak,
I'm sorry that I care for you,
but with words I can't speak.

I'm ready to start over,
and have you as my friend.
And start over fresh and new
so I can open up to you again.

Just give me some time to trust you
and try to comprehend,
that I am tired of hiding from you
but a heart takes time to mend.