HolyHell

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    HolyHell

    These Demons have a hold on me something terrible… They take my mind when I’m awake.  They bind my thoughts in the Mid-Night hour.

    There is no rest for a heart that can’t rescue the repressed mind.

    I have no memories, there in emptiness lies all that I have.

    A tear holds all the love in the world that was left for me.

    A Broken heart manages the feelings that create the being that is me.

    A desolate room is where this shattered pump is held in cold captivity.

    I must acquiesce to this loneliness that is the ocean I drown in.

    Everyone around me has gone, and I can’t blame the brave ones who’ve tried for to happiness they only want to return.

    This last dance is all that I hold here in my dreams.

    Standing there in the midst of a fire that is hell, I’m an ornament decorated in celestial beads, and crystal jewels, silver necklaces and borrowed blues.

    The tail of my train is the greatest flame that you’ve ever seen, an orange flame blazing on blue heat.

    This final dance is the last time that I and destiny shall ever meet.

    Before I am swept away like dust with Hell’s Angels.

    One time for Satan, will I beg of thee to surrender this eternal damnation that surrounds my life.

    The Ghost that haunts all that is pure and good and true,

    The Phantom that relishes in my nightmares

    How many more will walk away, before I must admit defeat.

    How many more will God rebuke before I will lay at the Devils Feet

    Something Holy come take me away, piece together my heart, and create me over again.

    Make me reborn with a smile that is my owns, and love that belongs to everything I touch.

    Give me hills that for me will always be bountiful and green, a land made of milk of honey, paved in Gold.

    Bless my skin that it may never age, and happiness is a one story book, that never turns a new page.

    Lace me in Heavenly designs, and put a harp in my hand. Give to me all that will make up a heart that will never know hurt.

    Undo every wrong

    Hear this sinners prayer, strip me of Hells gown and give me everything that was promised to me…

    Don’t leave me by and by

    And I won’t hide by the Nile

    Just Take me Away, Take me Away….

     

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    JonTalbain commented on HolyHell

    09-12-2010

    Mon Dieu! This is definitely a chilling piece! I could never stop shivering as I read it, it felt and seemed to come to life here. And it is just a step into the human condition, the mind when it feels so isolated from the world. I loved this, though I must admit, it almost began to frighten even me.
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    blvdobd2009

    09/13/2010

    I love when a reader says that they could feel the emotions that I felt. It makes me honored to be stripped away and naked and Vulnerable. I feel embraced not critiqued, or judged... Thank you

    Chaos128 commented on HolyHell

    09-08-2010

    Ah, B. Does one get their driver's license one day and enter the Indy 500 the next? Do you learn to box on Friday and fight the heavyweight champ On Saturday? Your poem talks to me as if it were a living thing. Here's a metaphor that might come across more confrontational than constructive, but it's as close as I can come off the top of my head... Before you go into battle, it's important to know your enemy... but it's more important to know your weapons. I gotta feeling you're gonna be just fine : )
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    blvdobd2009

    05/14/2013

    Sweet Jesus sometimes people post comments and I dont get to see them because I am so anxious to see comments from newer works that I forgot I just read this today and this was posted two years ago...Nothing you have ever written to me was confrontational, and I really appreciate you because I have seen your other comments and they always help me thank you so very much!

    DeepEclipse commented on HolyHell

    09-08-2010

    Very vivid. This line (There is no rest for a heart that can’t rescue the repressed mind.) - to me showcases the full piece. The soul, the body, the mind, the heart, the desire and the duty all not getting along. Disapproving each other. Battling for supremecy. Your descriptions are so vivid. Showcasing a pain that might rattle the unwary mind. Loved the depth of this piece. Makes one wonder where exactly the balance ends and begins. If there is one.
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    A poem begins as a lump in the throat, a sense of wrong, a homesickness, a lovesickness. It finds the thought and the thought finds the words.

    Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

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