I Don't Mean to Sound Blunt, But I Fucking Miss You

On this night; I have been blessed
To wake up knowing the rest
Of my life will be spent
Dreaming of you

Everyday I try and forget
But every night you come unsent
My nights are haunted by you

I searched so long for the feeling
I knelt so long on my knees praying
For the feeling I got those nights you slept on the ride home

The answers I got were not in the bars
Or the women I brought back
They weren't in other places
And they weren't in other people
They are in the dreams I can't get back

I just want to sleep again
Because every time I do; I am with you
And this might sound blunt
But this has gone far enough
I can't live without you Jessica

On this night; I knocked myself out
With the vodka and hydrocodone
I woke up in a car in your front lawn
With a bouquet of flowers and a suit on
It was years ago; nevertheless I can't get it out of my head

Everyday is a hangover from all my thoughts left over
From the previous nights before
And every song I ever wrote was the antidote
To an uncontrollable headache that throbbed your name

I just want to sleep again
Because every time I don't; you seem so distant
And this might sound blunt
But the time has come for me to say straight up
I can't live without you Jessica

The phone dosent ring like it used to
The world isn't as beautiful without you
The roads are lonely
And traveling only
Reminds me of how far I am from you