I Guess

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    I Guess

     I guess I've been wrong all along
    About what it means to love someone
    I thought it meant 
    Treating them kindly,
    Giving them lots of chances
    Always taking them back
    Even when they swear in your face
    Give you the finger
    And claim
    That "You are NOT my real Mom."
    I guess I was wrong about how to love.
    I am tired
    of being
    Your door mat for you to trample on
    Whenever you get the chance
    I guess I am learning, one more time
    That I need to be treated 
    With respect
    I guess I was wrong
    To lose 
    all of those nights of sleep
    Over you
    Whenever you were missing
    I guess I was wrong
    To continue
    To care for you when you were high on meth
    Got drunk,
    And continued to call me "BITCH".
    I guess I was wrong
    To start trusting you again
    Only to be screamed at,
    Taken advantage of,
    Ripped off continually.
    Never a thought 
    For how I felt
    about anything
    You do not care for me,
    So why should I care for you?
    I guess I was all wrong
    or was I? 

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    knight4696 commented on I Guess

    12-23-2009

    Wow Lucinda! This is definately deep and emotional. This is always a hard road to travel ... We can only hope that one day they turn around and understand
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    rougepriest commented on I Guess

    12-04-2009

    HI well its certainly a good scolding, I feel for you in this position, twin cities is a bad place to be for a drug addict! We just moved from there 5 yrs back cuz of the gang and drug problem there. If you enable her in any way you must bear some responsibility for her actions (sadly). when she is high call the cops and have her arrested then she can get help. its all you have left that can help her, shes sick and you should do anything to get her help, jail wont hurt her, meth will! time is of the essence here, dont wait for her to help herself it wont happen, take control and stuff your feelings about it, do what has to be done, this is my semi pro. opinion. good luck ok but do something get people involved even law enforcement.
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    Charlie23 commented on I Guess

    12-04-2009

    It can be a tough position, to be a step mom! I suppose I lucked out with the family I got! But family is family, and why you do not need to take the abuse, it's important to always keep loving them!
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    lucindaclaire

    12/04/2009

    Hi Charlie, I was an adoptive mom, but I'm sure there are many similarities. THanks for reminding me to keep on loving. I start each day with that thought at the forefront of my brain and try to holdit there as long as possible. Some days it just floats away.

    bluewolf commented on I Guess

    12-04-2009

    Most certainly the excruciating pain one must endure when taking on that of being a parent. God could not be everywhere and therefore he made mothers.- Jewish proverb This quote stood out to me when I read your poem. Perhaps it will hold equivalent meaning to you, on some level. Blessed be.
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    Musicmynded1 commented on I Guess

    12-04-2009

    Pretty self explanatory this one is; hoping our children will come full circle is all we can ever hope for in various situations in their lives. I'm in a boat within' a boat within' a boat on this one;)
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