I Just Don't Know

I stare around this broken room.
Not Feeling to belong.
I just want someone to see me.
To know something is wrong.
I want to cry but not let it show.
I want someone to hold me.
Promise not to let go.
I look around the faces.
As they smile straight at me.
I smile back and try to make them happy.
As I turn around.
I slowly fall back to my dark world.
I wish for it all.
I wish it'd all go away.
Not wanting to suffer in this life.
I wanna be happy.
But I can't somethings are just not right.
My father never wanted me.
My family don't know crap.
My mother thinks I'm happy.
But only with my baby I'm like this.
I wanna forget the pain.
The suffering people put me through.
Wish it all would disappear.
But it's a tattoo.
A tattoo of scars.
Memories put on hold.
My bloody wrist erase this pain with something so small.
The blade is my savior and my killer at the same time.
I'm dieing slowly right here.
I love you bye.