I JUST

I'm just trying to understand
But it all seems so crazy
I honestly don't know anymore
You let go and here I stand
My tears leaving me feeling lazy
My heart closed it's door
Every time I see your face
Or someone mentions your name
I just want to hide
Just when I find a comfortable place
My life goes up in flames
And no one comes by my side
I just started to give up on standing tall
It didn't mean much to me
I just want to cry all the time
Because you never would call
And it wasn't me you wanted to see
I just couldn't understand why you weren't mine
My tears fall still
For I can't believe you're gone
My one true love
Leaving me full of doubt
For I am one my own
I pray for help from above
Because I wanted it to workout
Slowly my heart will heal
My true feelings I cannot hide
I begin to realize
It cannot be like this
It doesn't feel or seem real
The tears fall from my eyes
I can only wish for bliss