I ruined it all


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To my ex, Who i love with all my heart

I ruined it all

I miss him so much

I miss him touch

I miss his voice

But It was my choice..

I left him, But listen

I didn’t want to

My fool of a mother made me

I wish I could make him see

I didn’t mean to break his heart

Please see that this tore me apart

Nothing now is the same

When I hear his name

I feel so much pain

I feel cold and alone

I just want to fold up into a little ball

I want to fall into a big dark whole

Fill it with hot black Cole and set it on fire

While I call myself a lier..

I told myself I wouldn’t leave him

Especially if my mom didn’t get the clue

That we were meant to be

I told myself I would make her see..

I lied.. Now I want to die

Im not the same girl I was when I was with him

And I will never be

I miss him so damn much

I miss his touch

I miss his voice.

But it was my choice..

Now I wont hear him say

The 3 words he said everyday..

I love you

He loved me, I could tell

But now how could he

After I ruined what we had

I ruined our dreams

I ruined our future

I ruined both of our lives..

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angelchaser commented on I ruined it all


Ashley, your life is NOT over, honey. Not at all. The pain of a lost love can be unbearable at times. But you will get through it. You'll move on and while you'll always have fond memories of him, your heart will let you love again. Trust me.

Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words.

Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

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