i will be just fine

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i will be just fine

ill rip and tear myself to shreds
claw my skin and slash my flesh
scratch my eyes and make them bleed
blind myself so i cant see


cast my brain in a chemical haze
and walk around in a fucking daze
murder my thoughts as they come to me
abortion through lobotomy


ill vomit out this jagged pill
and hope it tears my throat to hell
make me choke on my own blood
because ive fucking enough


for once ill rip out my own heart
and slice that motherfucker apart
watch it die within my hand
just because i fucking can


all of this shit that i always feel
and all the wounds the never heal
all because i feel too much
and i really think ive had enough


ive had enough of all this pain
i carry around everyday
at some point it has to stop
before i become completely lost


so with my claws ill shred my skin
ill rip and tear my flesh again
with a scratch i blind my eyes
and make them bleed instead of cry


chemicals laced into my brain
will surely create a foggy haze
kill any thoughts that come to me
a self induced lobotomy


as for the pill thats in my throat
the one thats always made me choke
i will try to spit it out
and taste the blood within my mouth


into my heart ill grind some salt
so the pain can be MY own fault
ive had enough of all this shit
the pain and hurt, im through with it


i dont want to feel it anymore
i want to be who i was before
if that means i have to hide
within myself to survive


ill push it back and mask my face
and cover up all my pain
ill dry my tears and blank my mind
and stop looking for what im trying to find


maybe everyone can be content
if no one will have to deal with it
the world can go about their lives
and i will be just fine!


 

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LenaM commented on i will be just fine

11-17-2010

Rage at it's rawest, no hold's barred, and before anyone else can inflict the damage ,you have taken control and inflict the damage to your own self which I feel equals or surpasses what others have done and my favorite line ? for once ill rip out my own heart and slice that motherfucker apart watch it die within my hand just because i fucking can without being rude in my reply it must be said in the way that's fitting for this piece ...this is fucking brilliant

Dano

11/19/2010

this one holds alot of anger for sure... frustration with myself and other people not really understanding what i am going through and not being patient with me... thanks for the great comment

dahlusion commented on i will be just fine

10-08-2010

"i dont want to feel it anymore i want to be who i was before if that means i have to hide within myself to survive" —as the entire poem is truly a work of brilliance, this paragraph hit home. Bravo! Peace and Light, dah

Dano

10/12/2010

thank you so much dah

Maleficent commented on i will be just fine

02-01-2010

wow d... there's the anger I was talking about... kinda has a touch of impetuousness to it... much? awesome ventilation, tho... 10+

The true philosopher and the true poet are one, and a beauty, which is truth, and a truth, which is beauty, is the aim of both.

Ralph Waldo Emerson, American Poet (1803-1882)

Dano’s Poems (150)

Title Comments
Title Comments
from an angels view 19
searching the darkness 10
a letter from santa 14
thanksgiving (acrostic) 12
the depth of... 11
ive wished 7
absentee 12
this is... 13
a journey into the dark 7
the cold of november 14
your voice 12
the yin to the yang 14
twisted 9
autumn 14
i think it happened again 11
luna~tic 19
the darkness 13
a blinding eclipse 16
the universe... 18
the wind of sorrow 14
my sorrow weeps 16
where but the dark... 12
immortal kiss 47
in a darkened room 17
our mother 7
within these flames 12
nocturnal (acrostic) classic rock 7
behind wrought iron bars 25
what i write (part 2) 8
today 17
the world in grey 6
the reality of... 5
in the shadow of a mountain 6
nothing will ever be the same 10
of cemetary dreams (and nightmare scapes) 12
next to a bed... 18
but... 15
at a funeral 12
seventeen (acrostic) 11
the fortunate one(s) 7
what did i do... 24
ashes to dust 45
dancing in the moonlight 14
disempowering the pain 14
the butterfly 10
what i write 14
sorry (i killed the after glow) 11
the humidity rises (an erotic tale) 9
pieces of light 8
the sad pumpkin &... 9
my face 12
for a long time... 14
(an explination of) distractions 6
tell me... 6
the charelston cookie tin 9
silent self destruction 8
exposed 13
the means of the day (a true valentines poem) 2
a poem about nothing... 8
blood bleeds black 7
dissecting myself 3
i will be just fine 3
the stacking of bricks 3
the complexities of depression... 4
spirits & ghosts 3
**random chaos** 2
bloodlust 3
...somethings missing... 2
15 years... 3
beauty sleeps entombed (parts 1 & 2) 3
**untitled** 2
the overstuffed closet 3
the candy dish 2
anxiety speaks 2
**untitled** 2
myself and the light 6
the fog 2
fire and tears 3
cerebral meltdown 3
sometimes i wish... 1
drawing strength from a starr... 2
disappointmen
t...
1
**untitled** 1
the flower garden 3
nature... 1
reaching out 2
the dark and the light... 1
the insistent demon 2
sorry... 3
forgive me lover... (parts 1 & 2) 2
im so sorry... 3
**no title... just random thoughts** 1
to eternity... 2
winter wind whips... 1
tired 2
lucid dream 1
the rains came... 2
the mourning light 1
another jagged pill 1
i just cant... 1
entitlement?!
?!?
1
entitlement!!
!!
1
burning within 4
inside of me 1
projected pain 1
the night... the dakness & the truth? 1
panic 2
the mourning fog 1
when the fires burn 1
through the night 1
shadow casts 0
a mournful rain 1
i cant protect me 2
my comfort place 0
an echo shifts 1
the monster 2
welcome to my life 0
the past is alive... 1
... 1
standing on the edge 2
my smile... 1
anxiety 2
my reality 0
another view... 0
untitled... 0
jagged pill 2
in the dark 1
what to do 1
how can i... 1
life... 3
a crust of pain 1
keeping me weak... 2
my dark world 3
another night of wondering 2
in the attic 4
i hold most dear 2
the me inside of me 2
another day 1
dreamed in a dream 2
a year in the life (dealing with death) 1
i look... 1
where my secrets are kept 1
a mouthful of words 2
i will not fear (when my eyes are blind) 2
i am aware (i'm already dead) 7
standing in the silence of my own shadow... 3
a blinding dark 1
growing pain 3
the longest of nights 5
... 7