The music plays loudly in my ear. As my tears fall down my face. Everything is falling apart. It was so perfect ,well very close to perfect. But I looked away from my close to perfect life and when I look back it was my nightmare. I should be use to this. Good things don’t last forever but I though this time it would last. But once again I’m wrong. Life is taking the things I once held close and making them disappear. Life is trying to kill me. I watch as my life is passing me by now.What the point of trying to be happy if all it does is hurt me more and more everytime. I stare at this ceiling so blank. I wish my life was blank  again. New. But I know I can’t. I can’t take back the pain I cause people or the tears I make them cry. I can’t take back anything. But I pray ,I wish I could take it back. But I guess I wouldn’t be me if I did.