Idle While....
i cut out my heartdug my knife in deep
stripped down the bark
licked at the blood
and weeped
this is not for me,
this addiction so deep
ten years falling
down the same dry well
unconscious and slack
a picture of all i lack
hanging askew
quivering on a thumbtack
rack yourself on angel's dust
magenta streaked wrists
suck out the rust
and lie
naked beneath the shredded sky
the light is so far away
breathing like a newborn
floating in a skin of wine
somewhere long ago
on the shores of Noname
i am a torn lizard
in the teeth of a rabid eagle
spinning out of control
into the bottom
how quick the silence can descend
mouths' moving behind sheets of glass
never reaching into me
i feel less than nothing
but i keep on veering
further past the bend of the moon
a journey of a million miles
on an endless high
death's head
maniacally smiling
i torture myself
with the evidence of my destruction
casually manipulate my frontal lobe
with stainless steel surgical tools
drag through my memories
searching for my own dead body
hoping i surface
with all the reasons
why i failed
clearly written on my body
in runes of raised flesh
i cant incorporate
my eyes never undilate
the decisions i make
i probably fake
absurd foreseen mistake
the beauty all around
unreachable
armageddon choirs singing
for the muscles to keep moving
beneath decrepit wishes
still dreaming
im alone in my bed screaming
soundlessly
friction dissolves any chance i have
at passing away peacefully
raw nerves exposed
to the degradation of society
i cant help but wither and writhe
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