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That's you

Still is

That hasn't changed

But some things have

Like me

Tall

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On the outside

But a raging storm within

A storm that destroyed

So much

But you

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I fell for the facade

I fell for you

I did

I fell for

Your deep brown eyes

Looking at me

With something

Something I didn't yet understand

Your hands

That could crush a soda can in seconds

But gently hold mine for hours

Or softly trace my lips

Your smile

That lit up the room

And my insides

With the warmest glow

Your laugh

Silly and sweet

Never at the important things

Always at my attempts at wit

Your arms

Not bulging muscles

But enough that I felt safe

In your firm embrace

Your wit

So smart

But never correcting

Always used for the good

Your love

Yes, I fell for that the most

And a part of me

Still longs to have you

Hold me

Hold me

Hold me

That feeling of

Pure joy

And if you would have told me

That all of that

Would be

Just the past

I would have cried

Told you never to leave me

Never

Please

No

But something changed

Someone changed

Maybe both of us did

But I can't live

With just you

Don't you understand

I love you

But I love my friends

My family

Other people

Sometimes it hurts so much

That I almost do want to be

Exclusively yours

I almost wish

That I could have you back

Because I love

The idea of

Being with you

I am in love

With you

But not with what you've become

I need space

Not the

Dating other people

Type of space

Like I tried to tell you

The type of space where

I can do things without you

Hang out with friends

Without you worrying

I'll meet some guy

Have guy friends

Without you thinking

That they'll steal me

I need space

To be my own person

Even though I

Love you

So much

So deeply

That it hurts to

Even think about it

But I will never love

Being caged

Or having someone

That's not secure enough

To trust that I love them

I

Love

You

I truly do

But now

It's not worth the restrictions

I need someone

Who loves me enough

To let me

Be me

That's what I need

And right now

You're not at that point

But when you get there

Give me a call

Because

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I'm still in love with [the idea of] you