In The End

I'm struggling to keep my head up and not pull this trigger;

But each time I get through one crisis, it seems the next one is even bigger.

 It's like a never ending battle just to get through each day;

For my strength is gone; he's no longer beside me,

 With all those wise words he use to say.

 My life has been like a roller coaster; with all its ups and downs,

And my heart has been ripped out of my chest; and I was left looking like a clown.

I feel it slipping away from me the desire and will to live my life,

For this pain is so real, and having to deal with all the stress and strife.

Now I feel it's all lost to me and I feel I have nothing left.

So why not leave this world; this miserable existence;

And just end it with my death