Inner Child
Just wanted to be loved, feel safe, never be left alone
Wanted to make you proud dad, wanted to follow in your foot steps
Poor Mom so caught up in her battle with dad
Why Mom and Dad are you two so consumed with fighting each other
What about me
I want your Love
I don’t want to be used as a pawn to hurt the other parent
I’m too young to be forced-to choose between parents
Why are you doing this to me
I Love you both
Please don’t break our family apart
Why am I a disappointment Dad
Why aren’t I good enough Dad
Why am I an embarrassment Dad
Why don’t you Love me Dad
Why is my little sister treated like the oldest
I’m the oldest
But am treated like a step child
I was never a priority for my parents
I was abandoned by both my parents
Left to survive on my own
A young adult
I fall in love
Get engaged
She abandons me in the middle of war
In and out of relationships
Giving what I feel is Love
Trying to share my Heart with another
I’m countlessly betrayed
Countlessly abandoned
What is wrong with me
Am I a monster
Am I not good enough
My Heart just wants a soul mate, Love
To know what it’s like, not to be alone
I want to know what its like to actually be Loved
A fully grown adult now
I have never gotten to experience True Love
I have been abandoned by every woman I have ever loved
I have been abandoned by the family members that were supposed to be there for me
My last ex has treated me like a monster
I’m hurt, alone and numb
I try to escape my fate
With a dance, with passion in the night
But reality hits when the beauty, the woman
Leaves at the end of the dance
Leaves in the morning
When she doesn’t return a call
Or simply disappears
Too old to chase such Hearts
When will I find True Love
A woman worth my Heart
Talking to my inner child I say
Its ok me
I’ll never leave you
I’ll protect you, guide you
You’re good enough for me
I’m proud of you
You were a Marine
A Fire Fighter
A College graduate
Your not fat
You run marathons
You will inspire the world some day
With a book or other
How long will I have to Love myself enough for a missing Love
I want to share the world
Everything
With True Love
But I’m so numb
From one abandonment after the other
I’ve lost so many
Friends in battle
Woman I Loved
Family members that died too soon
It would be easy to cave in from all the loss
It would be easy to live a life of depression from the loneliness
But instead
To survive
I’m numb, living life in auto pilot
Trying to figure out what to do
How to find Love
How to survive my reality
I carry chains
We all do
Feel like I’m barely staying afloat
I can have that poster child life that others envy
Yes I have a successful career
Yes I’m in shape
Yes I have an education and a house
But that’s not good enough to find True Love
As I am still single
The Sunsets
Another memory creeps over my mind
I want to cry, I want to reach out to those lost parts of my Heart
The stars are overhead and the moon is out bright
I tell myself some day in the future
Ill find her, we’ll have kids and a beautiful family
One day….Some day
I’m not allowed to give up on life just cause it hurts
I bare the damn pain on my own
Its hard not to be bitter
Wish I could be seen by a woman I’m actually attracted to
Time to sleep, time to Dream
The sun rises
I’m still here, I’m still alive
God still clearly has a purpose for me
-Fin-
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