Inside

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    Inside

    I don't know if I could hide my anger within
    Trying to be good and not commit any sins
    Holding on to a life that I chose for myself
    Too busy caring about everyone else
    My prayers are filled with other people's names
    Yet in my heart I know they don't do the same
    A God fearing woman with way too much pride
    Nobody has ever seen the evil me inside
    I push back the anger for as long as I can
    And write my poems with my shaking hands
    How many personalities I have, I don't know
    But I'll never return to who I was long ago
    I travel through time with my distant memories
    Trying to forget what the world has done to me
    Turned me into a person with a cold lifeless heart
    Left all alone, trying to see in the dark
    My dark side is hidden by a bunch of fake smiles
    Wishing the pain would go away for a while
    Sometimes I feel so alone in this world
    I am stranded on an island, the loneliest girl
    Noone can hear me no matter how loud I scream
    And I close my eyes wishing this was only a dream
    But this is my life and I feel like I'm cursed
    Its all my fault, I deserve the worst of the worst
    The one person in the world that knows my heart
    Is a million miles away, we're so far apart
    I wish I could hear him say it's okay
    And that I will be happy again one day
    But good things are not in the cards for me
    I just sit by myself and keep trying to breathe
    For him I try harder to hold it inside
    Fighting so hard to just stay alive
    Losing my sanity more and more every day
    Finding it harder to keep the demons away
    One of these days I know that I'll break
    And show the whole world all the pain that I take
    I'll unleash the evil that lingers in wait
    And let them all see the logic in my hate
    Nobody knows how hard it truly is
    To hold in your pain and sorrow like this
    I can't hide my feelings, so for now I just write
    About all the pain I have in my life
    And deep down inside I wish I could heal
    So I don't have to let my anger reveal
    But more than just anger, I feel so hurt
    Like my soul has been kicked down lower than dirt
    My words are just scribble, they don't mean a thing
    It's not like anyone cares about what I'm feeling
    So I'll be by myself and dwell in the past
    And wish that my nightmares would go away fast
    Nobody knows the tears my eyes have cried
    So I'll just keep holding it deep inside

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    Poetry is not the expression of personality but an escape from personality.

    T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American-English poet and playwright.

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