I never thought that I could hurt this much
I thought my life couldn't be more painful
Now it is...
My empty heart is full of pain
My eyes full of tears
My head is filled with angry thoughts...
My mind filled with strange, new fears...
I never thought I could cry like this...
Never thought I would end up so depressed...
I wish there was a way to...
make it all go away...but of course...
there is not...
Why is my heart...always pushed away?
What is it that I do the wrong way?
I will never know..
Something is tearing at me from the inside...
It hurts..so much...
My friends try to make me feel better...
It doesn't work...
I'm just not myself anymore...
I am broken...
my heart has been broken....
A guy finally succeeded in making me hurt...
succeeded in tearing me apart...
peice by little peice...
I'm not sure that I can be put back together...
I don't like being alone anymore...
I dislike the quiet...
I don't wanna think about these things...
I need a distraction...
When I try to think...my thoughts are filled with him...
I hate it...
I am so sad...
I am so angry...
I am so hurt...
I am so lonely...
I am so...broken....
My vision is blurry...
I'm not sure I'll ever get over this...
I may live the rest of my life with this terrible pain...
I hate to cry...
But this guy has made me cry...so many times...
Why?
I never even thought it could actually be so bad....

By: Emily Wallace 2-8-09 12:55 AM