losing the fight...

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  • ApaqRasgirl
  • Back online after loosing internet for a long time. I am very happy to finally be back with all my friends and I hope to de writing and posting soon. Love Asha

losing the fight...

Locked inside my own clouded mind
That magic pill to take away all the pain
Rules my day from beginning to end
How do I fight this devils device
For I cannot live with all the pain my body fights
Life now functions only from that artificial magic
Don't run out, my brain just spins
Searching everyone to find another again
Completely controlled by artificial nourishment
The mind no longer sees the right from the wrong
Taking from that of my love, my brain just wont comprehend
Good or bad, It just knows the need for that magic again
Morning dawns my body creaks and pops
Sipping that first cup of coffee
Waiting for the artificial to kick in
Just to feel normal as the day begins
So many times I've lost this battle and start again
Life is cruel when pain rules your very existence
Objects with shiny thin edges begin to look like peace again
Locked inside my own clouded mind

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trocka7 commented on losing the fight...

08-03-2010

"Objects with shiny thin edges begin to look like peace again", what a great line! I can relate to this very much, thank you for putting it so perfectly :) I do not live with constant physical pain, but I have had a lot in my life and understand how absolutely DRAINING it is....wishing you the best :) great poem!

ApaqRasgirl

08/03/2010

thank you dear friend for your heartfelt words...yes living with sevier physical pain is such a pain......lol.....and I have added to it this week by having a bad fall..........I wrote about it to get a laugh to keep from crying so much from the pain,,,,,,went to er, thankful nothing broken.....that write is called "Oie Vay, I Fell Down and Went Boom" enjoy and please have a good laugh..... thanks again loves ya asha

MootPoint commented on losing the fight...

07-30-2010

Sometimes we feel that we are losing the fight. Just you keeping your mind active helps to keep your mind in shape.

ApaqRasgirl

07/30/2010

thank you dear and oh how true your statement is. I wish I did not have to live with all the pain my body goes through, but I will fight it as long as I can..... loves ya asha

ginga commented on losing the fight...

07-29-2010

Asha, Often when the chips are down human pain can only be curbed by pills, yet when one returns to reality the truth faces. A poem showing the forlorn's addiction in poignant prose. ginga

ApaqRasgirl

07/29/2010

thank you dear for that sweet comment. it is a daily struggle to live with severe pain love asha

Teardrops commented on losing the fight...

07-28-2010

I wish i had the power to make it all better but I don't . Pain is something you can't take care of later or just put in the back of your mind . I hope you find the answer to stop the pain your poetry shows a woman of strength and in controll of her life . Don't let the pain win . You have my prayers with you always a 10 for me Marie

ApaqRasgirl

07/28/2010

thank you dear for caring, yes I do struggle with it everyday but like you said my strength does help to keep me going. thanks love asha

Madelynn commented on losing the fight...

07-28-2010

Sipping that first cup of coffee Waiting for the artificial to kick in Just to feel normal as the day begins -I soooo relate to this line, lol. I really enjoy poems-thoughts, that let us in the doorway of the writers mind. This write really touches on your gray moments, all of our gray moments. Deep, mind play-10 from Maddi, -hugz

ApaqRasgirl

07/28/2010

thank you dear for that caring comment. love asha

Poetry is not the expression of personality but an escape from personality.

T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American-English poet and playwright.

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