1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

Maybe I was in the wrong when I told little BIG brudda that love sucks. Look where it has me. TRAPPED! Looking for a way out! I heard someone say that love was for the birds, then why am I chirping like one of them?

I still love him, and it makes me want to puke.

I still love him, even when I try to force myself not to.

I still love him and it seeps deep from the core.

I love him and sadly I feel ashamed because it makes my heart feels sore.

I still love him so much, I still think about the cold days when he wrapped me in his arms.

I still love him so I still feel the security when he would hold my hands and make me feel like I couldn't be harmed.

I still love him so, I remember the times he made me smile, and he would ask "Why you smiling for?"

And I would simply respond "Because I can if you must know", knowing my head was saying "He was the reason I smiled, and all he had to do was hug me and nothing more." :)

I still love him so; I’m unable to tell my body to go into defeat mode as it gets chills at the sound of his name.

I still love him so, I’m afraid to crawl to my big brothers and pray they drag me out of this game,

I still love him so; I miss him even when I tell my heart not too.

I still love him so I tried forcing myself into "hating" him, and that seemed so hard to do.

I still love him so I DISLIKE that he was unable to be as perfect as he once was in my dreams back in the day.

I still love him even though I know deep inside my heart should go the other way.

I still love him even though he may have never loved me back.

I still love him from the pit of my stomach, that’s where it’s deep cavity tooth painful to run the other way and learn new facts.

I love him so; it makes me sick in the pit of my stomach to know he is yet sowing his wild oats.

I still love him so, that deep in my heart I know I must turn my back on him and go.

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