MAMA
August 11th, 2007 4:10am


I would like to start by saying Happy Birthday to my mama

Over the years we both have been through some drama

It has been almost two years, since you past and gone away

Just so you know I haven’t forgot, I’m saying Happy Birthday

I love you with all of my heart, but I wish things were different

I wish that I could have gotten more of your attention

Somehow the love was still there, truly, I know it

I just feel that sometimes that you didn’t show it

Maybe that’s why I want me a good woman so bad

To show me the love that I wish you had

I’m not dissin you mama, just trying to make immense

If I had a second chance to pick a mother, I would pick you all over again

I wish you were to guide me some mo (more)

And answer the questions about women that I just don’t know

Like why they always love the bad men and treat the good ones like shit

There are some things about women that I just don’t get

I know you see my kids everyday, and that is fo-show, I just wish you were still here to watch them grow
I thought I was a good man at the end of everyday

But I guess not mama, because she still took the kids and went away

Sometimes life feels like a pot of water, and it is trying to boil me

But I make it, and I thank you, because you didn’t spoil me

Tell Ike I said hi, I know he glad to have you back

For the record, I forgive you for anything you did wrong, even the smoking crack

Not that you are asking for forgiveness, I just wanted to let you know

That you are my mama, I love you, so I forgive and let go

I know that you are tracking the fact that your other son is sitting in a jail

They say he did a real bad crime , so they put him in a cell

How did we come from the same womb and end up so different

I wonder what I had that he was missing

But I always longed for some of his qualities as well

Then I think if I did have them, shit I might be sitting in a cell

Mama I wish you were here to help with this complex situation

These days I find it hard for me to write him , and give him words of motivation

This whole life is crazy and I don’t know what to do

So I just keep souping myself up, saying that I can make it through

The truth is sometimes I don’t believe it 100%, and I just don’t know
So I just play the cards that I am dealt and see how it go

The marriage is gone to shit and I miss my kids everyday

Mama that hurts me like hell because I didn’t want them growing up this way

You know what I mean, a single parent home like me

You did your best, but two heads is better than one you see

I just hope that I can raise them to be better than me

So Happy Birthday Mama, - I got birthday wish.

That you appear in my dreams and give me a kiss

And please tell GOD to watch your kids' back-

Cause yo baby boy is trying get his life on track.

August 11th 2007 5:30am