My Story

My first puppy love left me lonely,
I kept hoping he would be be my one and only,
I gave him my virginity,
He walked away and left me in self pity,
I walked alone and scared,
I went to the arms of another unprepared,
I wrapped myself in his false love,
I prayed we could make it to the creator above,
He left me with two little ones in tow,
I fell down so low,
Unsure of how to handle the stress of parenthood,
Angry and full of hate, I brought no good,
Two small children crying by my side,
I needed to find a place to hide,
I found shelter with another man,
This one I knew I would give my hand,
Still to wounded from the heartache from before,
To love him became empty and a chore,
I kept him hurt and scared,
Afraid of the evil I had brought and bared,
He ran away from me,
All he said is he wanted to be free,
Now I sit alone full of hate and rage,
A hungry tiger and her two cubs in this cage,
I wonder how do I let go,
Give my little cubs the strength to love and grow,
They deserve me to be better,
Not me writing angry words to an empty letter,
How do I teach them to love and forgive,
I want them to grow up and live,
Not just live, but to enjoy life,
Be happy to be a man's wife,
I have them and they should be my greatest joy,
I am afraid their dreams will be shattered by some boy,
What can I do to show them that they matter,
When my dreams are empty and my life is left to shatter?