Never to be loved

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  • shakeme4life
  • Learn yourself, love yourself, and respect yourself! Your past is but on step towards your future.

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love's unkind game

Never to be loved

I often wonder why he didn't see ,
that i was doing much more than playing house .
I did what made him happy , even though it sacrificed my own happiness.

Tides of crashing disobiedience towards my parents ,
thought he'd see past the " ruin me schemes".

It's true I'm beautiful , it's true I'm not perfect,
now that you know this, your love has decreased,
yet, in the beginning you told me everyone has a past.
Why did you sleep with me if you thought i was moving too fast?

I thought you were mature enough to leave the little boys playground, thought the way you made me moan in the bed was a sign . especially when you lay real close and grind.

It was first in my eye , that gleam , when you said you loved me made me cream. My heart couldn't rationalize it being anything more than a dream .

Why didn't you save me , left me dirty and crying , a hopeless romantic, the agony of my burst ed heart.
each destroyed throbbing part.

I thought you were the answers to my riddle , a true knight , the fire in my heart was extinguished and cold,
the way you used me, then left me , was  lingering and bold.

See in my mind was scorched the idea of a perfect man on a horse , this would only turn out to exist in movies and books , of course. forever chasing what i could never seem to find , only tortured delusions of my own mind .

Everyday i waited in hunger , for you to love me as much as i loved you , for our spirits to inter twine, for something more special than just a tingle down my spine. I let my eyes do the begging , my heart pulled on yours so strong , that it took you years to leave me alone .

Till every sound of your voice , sounded like poison, the very thought of you , mention of your name , brung me undying pain. my mind held captive wrapped in a stray jacket insane . 

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coolace commented on Never to be loved

07-14-2011

wow this is deep!! made me think of myself base on a poem i just wrote

shakeme4life

07/15/2011

Thank you for stopping by and commenting Coolace ... i'm on my to your page to check out your poem ..

KING commented on Never to be loved

01-10-2011

Wow I love the passion in your words and I get the vibe that you weren't even trying. This is impressive work. It needs to be spoken, not read.

shakeme4life

04/19/2011

ha ha ha ... yes sir .... your right .... i need to practice this one , i figure it may help some other hopeless romantics ... thank you

YQUS commented on Never to be loved

12-17-2010

yeah, im definately diggin' this. ur an amazing writer...

shakeme4life

01/07/2011

YQUS ,,,, preciate you stopping through.....kind words

YQUS

01/07/2011

What's next on the menu?

knight4696 commented on Never to be loved

12-08-2010

Shake ... You definitely hit close to home with this one. I was just recently torn apart by one whom I thought was my soulmate. Just know that you are not alone in this one .. Unfortunately, many will relate. Very enotional write indeed! :) Ken

shakeme4life

12/14/2010

Yes, unfortunate , i visit that close to heart break zone on a regular basis lately .... thank you for commenting , wish you well in love ,and restoring your faith in love ....

Olan01 commented on Never to be loved

12-07-2010

The essence of a broken heart and of love not returned. You have expressed your emotion clearly and the truth of it reminds us all of moments in our lives for truly you are not alone in this story; we are there, too. Love, peace and freedom, Olan.

shakeme4life

12/14/2010

Thank you Olan , your words linger in my ears as i read your comment , i hope this wont be the case for the masses . I want to believe in true love, many thanks my friend .

Poetry is either something that lives like fire inside you or else it is nothing, an empty formalized bore around which pedants can endlessly drone their notes and explanations.

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