no mother of mine

do u ever think about taking ur life!
ever second of everyday no longer can fight
mama where were u when the pain got to deep
i just wanted to chill and for once have you fight for me
never knew wat ur negligence would do to me
cant believe how u made my depression so deep
u selfish parent
no mother of mine
u took my safety for granted
and broke my heart at the same time
let others take away my innocence
and my sanity
at the same time
u wont even take responsibility for wat u did 2 ur child
u black hearted women
u aint no mother of mine
ur worst than my father
and he aint even kind
now i have 2 get myself out of this depressive state
how do i do this and get over a challenge so great
i wish i could start over and do things differently but now i see there is no chance for me.
so now where does my future lye
wats my destiny
God mend this shattered peices so there could be a chance for me.
help me sleep at night so i can rest in peace
so when i wake up and do it again it can be a little easier for me
God teach me to love unselfishly
so when i have the chance i can be a good mom to my kids
and never have my children in the same predicament then me
 
~to be continued~
lioness4life