The memories of what was lost always stay with me, causing me to stray away from what really matters. Your face comes into veiw as the last words you spoke to me run through my mind. Maybe it is best that I forget and leave this all behind, but for some reason I can't and I don't quite know why. I'm clinging to a promise that may never be kept and i'm wasting my time.

What really matters is here in front of me but all I want is to look back.. Why? Why must it be like that? I'm losing my future chasing the past, which I will more than likly never regain. My soul wants to heal but my heart would rather stay with the memories.. My heart chases what is now but a ghost. Perhaps my soul will never heal anymore. I don't want to lose what I have only recently found, but still I want more than this..

What will it take for me to learn? Will I fall so low that I can't get up again? I'm still here, clinging to a promise that may never be kept. Only fooling my self more..