Question

In the mist of falling I catch myself,
I realize I can't let him grab on to my hand no more,
I can't join him in his endless fall,
Where I am pulled into tormenting emotional depression,
His presence calms the endless ache,
However, it also allows the ache to continue,
To let go will cause a pain greater than holding on,
Nonetheless to hold on will suffocate the life out of me,
The question is the realization,
Let him suffocate me or suffer the depression of letting go,
Each way is grave,
Full of consequence,
I can't let him grab me, but I can't let him go,
The solution comes from the pain of either way I choose,
So stay stagnant, 
Pray for a release,
Either way will end in a fall,
I can fall with him or fall alone,
I can't let go,
I won't let go,
Realization of wanting to let go,
To not let him grab me ends the sentence to a  contionous fall with him,
A fall of which I can not escape,
Or keep hold of to him, and at least have the will to live.