"JUST IN TIME"

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    "JUST IN TIME"

     I'M A "PRISONER" OF FLASH BACKS, HOW MY LIFE USED TO BE,

    "LIFE" IN THE FAST LANE,,YOUR'RE TALKING BOUT ME!

    I'M NOT A BIT PROUD OF WHAT ALL I DID,

    IT TOOK MANY YEARS OF MY THAT I "HID".

    I "TRIED",,,,,,,MORE THAN THEY KNEW,

    STARTING "MUSHROOMS" TO "METH",

    IF MY "MOM" SHOULD FIND OUT,, SHE WOULD WORRY TO DEATH!

    SHE KNOWS I SMOKE WEED, AND BEGGED ME TO STOP!

     IF I ROLLED UP MY SLEEVES?, IT WOULD CAUSE HER TO DROP!


    SEEMS "NOTHING" ELSE MATTERS, JUST TO GET MY NEXT "FIX"!

    I'D DO WHAT I HAD TO!  INCLUDING "STREET TRICKS"!!!!


         I'M GOING TO HELL!, ON THAT "FINAL" LAST HIT!

    FOR I "LOST" TOUCH WITH "GOD", WHEN I KNEW I "CAN'T QUIT!"


             
             I WAS "TRIPPING" ON ACID, WHEN "HE", CAME INTO SIGHT!

    "MY GOD"!, "ARE YOU JESUS"?,,,,,,,AND "HE ANSWERED, YOUR'RE RIGHT".

    "HE REACHED OUT HIS HAND" AS I RUBBED ON MY EYES,

       "HIS HAND", NEVER TOUCHED ME!,,,,,,,,,BUT CAUSED ME TO RISE!

       I WAS "NUMB" WHEN I SAW "HIM", STANDING RIGHT BEFORE ME!

    "SOFTLY SAID, CHILD, I FORGIVE YOU",,"NOW JUST FOLLOW ME",


          MY LEGS COULDN'T MOVE!, MY BODY SHUT DOWN!

    I WAS "LIFTED" BY "ANGELS",WHEN "AWOKE",,,,,,,,WAS IN TOWN!

    ON THE STEPS OF A BUILDING,, CALLED "REHAB OF THE CROWN"

    WHEN I WALKED IN THE ROOM,,,,,THERE SAT MY MOM!

    EYES STREAMING WITH "TEARS",YET WITH "SMILES", AND NOT FROWN"!

    "COULD THIS BE MY CALLING? "SHOULD I TELL WHERE I'VE BEEN?

        "SHOULD I TELL THEM OF "JESUS" AND SPOKE "FORGIVENESS" OF SIN?

    I ACHIEVED THROUGH THE REHAB, MY HEARTS BEATS AGAIN!

    BUT "MY SECRET WITH JESUS?" I'LL KEEP IT "WITHIN".


    IT'S NOW BEEN A "YEAR", AND I DO ATTEND CHURCH,
    CAN'T PRAISE HIM ENOUGH, "IT" WAS "MY TIME" TO SEARCH!

    "WITH DRAWN" FROM "WHAT'S" OUT THERE,,,,IT GIVES ME THE CREEPS!

      I "FEAR" I'LL GET SPOTTED BY MY PAST........AND MY "PEEPS".


     MY "COUNSILOR", NOW TELLS ME "ANXIEITY" I'VE GOT!

    I CAN'T BLEND WITH PEOPLE OR A CROWD,,,,,,,WITH A "PLOT".


             IT'S HARD BEING "DRUG FREE", WHEN IT'S ALL THAT I'VE KNOWN!

    BEING LABLED "UNCOOL", A "MISFIT", OR NOT "GROWN"!



                   IF I ONLY "KNEW" THEN, WHAT I KNOW NOW "TODAY,,,

     "THEY" WANTED TO BE ME!!!!!!!!

     SO THEY TURNED MR "THEY'RE WAY!!!!!!!!


                                                                             CAROLYN LOVE

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    Tempestlady commented on "JUST IN TIME"

    07-10-2009

    Misery loves company I guess. Sad but oh so commonplace. They can't be you so you end up like them to blend. Now it's till hard to blend. Good poem, not real smooth yet though. Write on....

    carol1952

    07/10/2009

    can'nt pleasethem ll i guees1 lol thx mfriend for cthe comment,mt riend,carol

    carol1952

    07/10/2009

    thx my friend i cn used, all the advice i can!, thx for tjecomment,caol

    When power leads man towards arrogance, poetry reminds him of his limitations. When power narrows the area of man's concern, poetry reminds him of the richness and diversity of existence. When power corrupts, poetry cleanses.

    John F. Kennedy (1917-1963) Thirty-fifth President of the USA

    carol1952’s Poems (56)

    Title Comments
    Title Comments
    "MY VISIT TO HEAVEN" 1
    "havent a clue" 0
    THIS BROKEN DOWN ANGEL 1
    "TO BE OR NOT TO BE" 2
    "COMPANION" 2
    "MY LIFE IN A "NUT" CELL" 2
    "FARM LIFE" 2
    "COMPUTERS" 3
    "WALLS" 2
    "RAINBOWS" 3
    "CHANGES" 2
    "WILL YOU BE READY?" 1
    "THE CONNECTION" 2
    "THE INTRODUCTION" 1
    "THE BASICS OF LIFE" 1
    "JUST A LITTLE TALK WITH JESUS" 1
    "MISSING YOU" 1
    "CINNAMON" 2
    "JUST A MATTER OF TIME" 5
    "A GIFT FROM GOD" 8
    "I BELIEVE"!!! 6
    "CAN'T MISS A FRIEND, YOU NEVER HAD!" 5
    "USA" 3
    "BELIEVE IT OR NOT" 4
    "AS THE WORLD TURNS" 4
    "FANTASY FROM THE "PASSED" 1
    "QUIET PLACE" 2
    "SOMETHING FISHY" 4
    "LESSONS LEARNED, TABLES TURNED!" 6
    "THE JOURNAL" 4
    "BORROWED TIME" 5
    "YOUR'RE NOT ALONE" 4
    "JUST IN TIME" 1
    "LIFE" 1
    "TIM" 4
    "INSANE?" 4
    "A WORKING SOUL'S BOOST" 4
    "A TRUE BLESSING" 1
    "WITHDRAWN, WITH NO HOPE" 1
    "GOING HOME" 0
    "GONNA PLAY,,,,GOTTA PAY!" 3
    "THE TREE" 4
    "WEATHER OR NOT"! 1
    "MY JOURNEY WITH GOD" 1
    "MARRIAGE GONE WILD!" 2
    "CHRONIC PLEA" 0
    "NOT ALWAYS A "BOX OF "CHOCOLATES!" 1
    "THE POWER OF PRAYER" 4
    "ADDICTION" 2
    "CONFUSED, AND DOWNHEARTED" 2
    "ACCEPTANCE" 4
    "TWO DOGS DISCUSSING POLITICS" 4
    "DOG NAMED BLUE" 1
    "POET AND DIDN'T KNOW IT" 2
    "9-11-01" 3
    "A CRY FOR HELP" 3