"That FEELIN?"

I wanna feel "THAT FEELIN" again? The feeling of my VERY FIRST STRUGGLE, Down that FORMLESS TUNNEL. PROSTRATED and HUMBLE, I SWEAR I HEARD my MOMA MUMBLE a SILENT PRAYER 4 Her UNBORN BUNDLE. That She was UNKNOWINGLY SPIRITUALLY SACRIFICING 2 this CHAOTIC CONCRETE JUNGLE....................................................... CAN U REMEMBER WHEN U TOOK U'R VERY FIRST BREATH OF LIFE? Well that's SIMILAR 2 my LAST, but I can't see the FUTURE nor the PAST. So I ask, AM I HERE 4 A REASON, or am I just BELIEVING the TEACHINGS of this DEMON in HUMAN FORM. Waiting 2 DEVOUR the MINDS of our YET BORN, so that they can SPAWN their PRINCIPLES and IDEAS that not only keeps us PSYCHOLOGICALLY in FEAR, but UNSELFISHLY LOVING our ENEMY. With a MOUTH full of BLOOD and EYES full of TEARS. BUT I GOT PRIDE! And before I DIE! I wanna feel "THAT FEELIN" again? The feeling that I FELT when I FIRST STEPPED out on that COLD COLD BLOCK. The Old G's SEDUCED me with a BAG full of WHITE ROCKS and a BLACK GLOCK and He told me 2 THINGS. He told me, " YUNGSTA! DODGE the COPS and PROTECT the KNOT that will EVENTUALLY ACCUMULATE in yo SOCKS." Yea I was SCARED and PSYCHOLOGICALLY SHOCKED, but the ADREALIN RUSH was JUST 2 MUCH 4 a CHILD who was LACKING His MOTHER's TOUCH, but He had His FATHER's GUTS. So I didn't BOTHER 2 LISTEN 2 MY REAL FATHER. Who sits on the THRONE, who UNCONDITIONALLY LOVES His OWN, who EVEN after I stayed out all night and when I came HOME....I FOOLISHLY told my only MOTHER that I was GROWN. He still FORGAVE ME!!! But my mother didn't, She put me OUT of Her HOME. And now I LOVE just 2 HEAR Her voice on the PHONE. Because I be needing 2 feel "THAT FEELIN" again? The feeling that I FELT tahat day when that RACIST judge gave me TEN and THEY LOCKED my BLACK SKIN in the PEN. Not because I SOLD ROCKS and it was a SIN. BUT it was because I was EVERYTHING that He was NOT, SO He HATED my SKIN! HATED my TRENDS! HATED what I possess DEEP WITHIN, ENCODED inside of my MELANIN! But now I'm LOCKED IN with ABNORMAL MEN and THEY HATE me cause I just don't BLEND IN. AND AMALGAMATE? But I REFUSE 2 just ACCEPT this as my FATE. AND I just CAN'T TOLERATE FAKES so I made a MENTAL JAIL BREAK. AND in that STATE, I HEARD the VOICE of THE CREATOR just as CLEARLY as U can FEEL mines 2DAY. AND I HEARD IT SAY SIX WORDS? SHUT UP! SIT DOWN! AND WAIT! Now even though these HOPELESSLY LOST PRISONERS of WAR made me IRRATE everyday. I SAT MY SELF DOWN, SHUT MY MOUTH, and PREPARED 2 WAIT. And that's when I HEARD and RECIEVED the SIX most POWERFUL WORDS that every HUMAN BEING NEEDS. ACCEPT YO OWN AND RESPECT YOURSELF! And that's the DAY that my ENLIGHTENED JOURNEY began, Because U see 15 YEARS ago I had a PLAN, BUT because it was MY PLAN, INSTEAD of HIS PLAN. IT CRUMBLED in my HANDS? But before the WIND blew away my LOVE. NAW LET'S KEEP IT REAL! My LUST in2 the DUST. My DAUGHTER was CONCIEVED, but Her MOTHER felt DECIEVED. So She left me knowing that AKEEYA was my only REASON and MOTIVATION that I had 2 BREATHE. So now I'm DESPARATE 2 feel "THAT FEELIN" again? The feeling that I FELT that day when GOD took my RIB while I SLEPT. And CREATED these BEAUTIFUL MANIFESTATION. She's an ACCUMULATION of everything that ever WAS, WILL and EXIST in CREATION. She's MAGNIFICENT from HEAD 2 TOE. BOLD like She's STANDING under a MISTLETOE. And DARE one of U INTIMADATED LITTLE BOYZ 2 step 2 Her with that SAME OLD NOISE. Because her KISS is more ADORED than SATAN, but We FOOLISHLY keep CHASING. AN INSATIABLE HIGH, RACING 2 DIE. When right before our EYES STANDS THE MOTHER of CREATION! THE MOTHER of CIVILIZATION! THE MOTHER of EMANCIPATION! And LISTEN! SHE'S THE MOTHER and THE KEY 2 THE RESURRECTION of our NATION! Because U SEE, She's THE First TEACHER of the CHILD. She's THE ONE that We PLANT our SEED in. She's THE ONE when WE say ITS ME AGAINST THE WORLD. She'll be THE ONLY ONE that We still will be NEEDING. And all of this SAME SEX NONSENSE! That's just a FAD. Because after U r DONE participating in any and every ABOMINATION under The SUN. U will be the ONE in that HOT SEAT. BECAUSE GOD TOLD U DIRECTLY. NOT 2 EAT FROM THAT FORBIDDEN TREE? But We r all going 2 feel "THAT FEELIN" again? But this time it's not THE BEGINNING, it's THE END. And this time it's not yo ENEMY, it's yo FRIEND. And this time JESUS can't SAVE Us. We will ALL be PUNISHED 4 our SINS. And all of the AWARDS and ACCOLADES that we've ACCUMULATED over all our DAY'S won't mean one single thing when you're standing before His FACE on JUDGEMENT DAY! And He's going 2 ask U 1 Question. WHAT MADE U TURN AWAY? What made U think that U didn't need me. Was it VANITY. And the only REASONING that my FINITE MIND could THINK OF. Which really didn't matter because I had ALREADY been JUDGED. LIKE MOSES with THE FIRE and NOAH with THE FLOOD. I KNELT my PITIFUL self down and finally WILLINGLY SUBMITTED 2 HIS CROWN and said. "FATHER BECAUSE?"
I FEARED U..................................... MORE THAN I LOVED!

Haki "THE HOTTESTNEWPOET" Natuwah