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    If you said that you would never let me go
    than why am I laying here alone?
    You promised me that you would protect me from any and everything that would
    ever allow me to feel pain
    So how could you be the one to hurt me so badly?
    You said that with you I could let down my gaurd and be the me that I am
    and yet I have to put on so many heirs
    I feel too poor to love you
    too weak to hold you
    and like nothing when you put me down
    How can I be your queen when you treat me like a commoner?
    You vowed to build me up
    And then in the same breath destroy everything I own
    Publicly humiliate me and dehuminize me because I gave you the power to
    There was nothing that you did to me that I did not allow
    Every ounce of dominion that you felt was yours I gave to you
    I gave you power everytime I foolishly lost my voice and backed down in the face of fear
    scared that you would leave me
    and from my fear you thrived
    I gave you power everytime I hid my brilliance to make you look better
    Every dream I laid away so that you could shine
    Trying to lend to you what you should have already had in yourself
    How dare you belittle me and call it love?
    How dare I accuse you of hurting me when I never had the heart to leave?
    How dare you say you would love me better than any other man and abuse me?
    How dare I stay leave and stay return be burned and hurt and worse still want you?
    Ill be damned if I call it love
    Ill be damned if I call you mines
    Ill be damned if all that you are is all that I am worth?
    Ill be damned if I settle and go along with good enough?
    Ill be damned if youre my good enough
    Ill be damned if I quit because Im scared that there is no one who can love me better
    Ill be damned if I am confused enough to believe that you ever offered me love at all
    It was all conditional
    Your love was offered in exchange for my obedience
    And to my disenchantment I sold my mind my body my soul for you
    You are not my God
    I take all power that I ever gave to you back
    I rebuke every time that I exposed my heart and emptied my love for you
    You never deserved the me that I am that I will be and who she is
    is too good for you
    But never too good for farewell
    Goodbye

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    Ralph Waldo Emerson, American Poet (1803-1882)

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