Am I ready for love?
I am not sure exactly what it is or how it is supposed to feel.
I know my desire is to have someone to share joy and pain with, since both are real.
I have friends and we do this kind of thing for each other, but I feel deep down there is more to being a lover.
I cannot describe what is missing in strictly friendship ties, and I don't believe in all the happily ever after lies.
I want to experience the full breadth of love no matter what it ends up meaning.
I want to know another human at the deepest level of their core being.
How many people get to know love in such a way, that with just a glance they can see and feel the experiences of another?
Not just know that their life is hard or that it seems they are having a good day, but know what keeps them awake at night and what motivates them to live through the next day.
I get close to that kind of feeling with my dearest of friends, but I still don't know all the facets of their lives and what it would be like to live in their skin.
I want to hold someone and feel them breathing.
I want to touch them in a place beyond words and meaning.
I don't know if that is love and I know there will be more then I can ever anticipate, but I am ready for love and grateful that it is never too late.