Regret

Do you pick up the phone sometimes
With no intention of actually calling?
Do you listen to Taylor Swift?
(Best break-up songs I've found to date.) 
Do you write poetry about how angry or
Sad you are?
Do you crave that specific touch
(And perhaps search for it elsewhere)?
Do you wear that t-shirt
Because it "keeps you warm"?

I'm just trying to find out if this is all normal...
Do you know how many days it's been?
Do you ever try to count how many kisses I stole?
Do you ever collapse simply at the thought that there might not be an explination?
Do you long for a certain hand in yours
When you drift to sleep?
(Do I dare ask if it's mine?)

Do you ever wonder if love is more than a simple illusion to put us out of our misery for a short time
By giving us hope that
There must be more than this?
Do you think it was all designed?
Do you think this is what God wants
(For you? For me?)

Did you think I would never find out?
Did you thnk I wouldn't care?
Did you think it wouldn't devastate me?
Not only what you did, but
What you didn't.
Did you think at all?
I guess what I'm asking is

Do you regret it?
Or me?