Roundabout

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I wrote this a few years ago...its more a free-flowing thought than a poem.  I started out writing it to get some frustrations with someone out of my head, then it just morphed on its own....

Roundabout

Sometimes I feel like
I will love you
More than you will ever
Love me
Sometimes I feel like
I'd do things for you
That you would never do
For me

Sometimes I feel like
You don't appreciate me
Like you take for granted
My ability and my desire
To step into your world
And to pay attention
To who you are
And what makes you tick
And to be interested in
What would make you smile
And how I could
Make your day better
And what could remind you
That you are special
A special and specific energy
As are we all,
Yet this doesn't diminish any of us
Or our own specialness

If we could all try to be
As interested in each other
As we are in ourselves
Then we could all feel
Like royalty
We would all have someone
Or several someones
Who were making our days
Better and brighter
And striving to give us
The icing and the cherry on top

And this is not done
Because we think less of ourselves
It is purely to be
The best of ourselves
The best of me
Is what I want to see
And the easiest way to see it
Simply is to be it
To feel it authentically
When you become as important to me
As me
Then giving all I can
To you
Is delightful and fulfilling
To me

When I give to you
I receive
But this is not the reason
That I give
It is a wonderful benefit
Nonetheless
And when we falter
And go into ourselves so far
That we forget about all others,
Those that are actually
Extensions of us,
It is like neglecting one piece
While nurturing another
Even when both pieces
Exist as parts to a whole
Of the same organism
At some point,
The entire organism will suffer
If the whole is not maintained

We can feel the
Restriction of the flow
Of pure positive energy
When we do not give as much
When we are not being
The best we can be
As we restrict the love we give
So are we restricted in
The love we receive
And most importantly
Our self-love becomes
Diminished when we deny love
To others or ourselves

Loving others helps you to
Love yourself
Giving to others helps you to
Give to yourself
These things cannot be separated
For we exist as one love
Expressing itself in countless forms
Infinite thoughts
Endless ideas
A forever of possibilities

And through this writing
I remind myself not to
Judge you
Or feel hurt by you
As I did when I began
It was not my plan
To talk myself out of
My anger and hurt
I set out to be slighted
And to place blame
And to use this paper
As a way to let it out
Then I found myself
Dowsing my angry flame
Without even realizing it
Until now

It makes me happy
It makes me smile
That when you practice self-observation long enough
That eventually it just becomes you
And you realize that the observer part of you
Has taken over the driver's seat
And that when ego and mental machinery take over
That Love-Being or observer
Can get right back behind the wheel
Without ego even realizing it
I just gained a new found
Sense of trust in myself
How wonderful
How refreshing
How alive I feel

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Layla commented on Roundabout

07-25-2009

That's a good poem. your passion was alive in every word. I wish I could write like that but I'm very new to the entire concept of poetry. I love yours though. I simply love the way you could vent and write such beautiful words that paint a picture in one's mind at the same time.

trocka7

07/25/2009

thanks for your feedback, layla! I appreciate it a lot...I'm glad you liked this, I don't even consider it a poem! I have written so much and still consider myself new to the concept of poetry...to me poetry is an expression of thoughts and feelings that can evoke the same in others.

Poetry is not the expression of personality but an escape from personality.

T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American-English poet and playwright.

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