I am tired of feeling this pain
I am tired of being in pain
I want to live and not die
But sometimes the pain is too strong
I am young but I am old
Will this pain ever go
Will I get to live a life like I want
So many are scared and afraid
They don’t understand the pain inside of me
Day and night all I feel is this pain
Due to my sickness and disease
I have lost so many close to me
They said they were my friends
But once my illness came
They didn’t take long to run away
Now with just my family next to me
With a few friends that dared to say
All I have left inside of me is my will
I have the will to fight but will be to late
I have so many dreams deep inside my mind
Why did this have to happen to me
Did I do something wrong in a past life
For in this life I knew of no wrong
No wrong to cause this much pain
Slowly as my body turns on me
Everyday I find reason to live
Will I get the transplant I need in time
Or slowly by slowly will my body die
I lay here, trapped in my own body
I have no choose but to sleep
Afraid one day I will not wake
They have me on so many pain pills
Sometimes it feels like a dream
I see how hurt and sad my parents are
For their worse nightmare may come true
I do have those special friends I hold dare
They tell me never to give up and fight till the end
Sometimes I wonder if the end will come for me
As the end can see me, dare Lord I want to live
Due to this disease taking over my body
It already took one thing from me
I no longer can have my dreams of children
For it destroyed everything inside of me
Now I dream only to fight
Fight to stay alive, fight all odds
Will I live or will I die
Why does this pain never go away
One by one my organs die
Is it no bad enough I had my teeth pulled
Is it no bad enough you are killing me inside
Will when it be enough
Will it be enough when the end comes
As I fight to stay alive
It kills me deep inside
To see so many people hate and kill
When all I fight is for life
And to watch my god son grow into a man
Lord will you only give me this
If nothing more comes my way
And the end shall find me again
For a friend I hold close to me
Asked me to fight for my life
As I am a godparent to her son
At lease this joy I can treat like my own
So bless me with no children
Just bless me to live is all I ask

(Dedicated To A Friend)