SEARCHING FOR THE END

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    SEARCHING FOR THE END

    I feel it’s time for all the lies to end.

    I know that now you’ve ruined my dreams.

    I try so hard to stop the falling tears

    But when I look to you, you look away.

    I wonder, did you mean to break my heart?

    And did you mean to help plan my death?

    There was a time I never thought of death.

    I never feared the darkness of the end.

    But, when you made a promise to my heart,

    A promise of a never-ending dream.

    A promise you would never go away,

    But I’m afraid the pain would never end.

    I wish I’d only lost you in my dreams.

    How can I stop my stupid, foolish heart?

    Your lies have crushed the beating of my heart.

    As minutes pass with every passing tear.

    I stand-alone within my broken dream.

    I turn in fear of coming to the end.

    Now as I die I send your life away.

    Somehow cheating at love you got away.

    You simply stole my love and used my heart.

    I used to think my pain would never end

    In a way I released it with my tears.

    Is this a feeling of my final death?

    It seems so very different from a dream.

    Then myself I ask, how and why I dream?

    Love hurts too much to give it all away,

    But then I find the answer cannot be death.

     

    Looking I find the truth within my heart,

    But, it’s too late to dry my fallen tears.

    I forget the lies when I reach the end.

    Now no more dreams to hide my silent heart,

    No more wishing away my fallen tears,

    No more pain in death, for I’ve found the end.

     

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    knight4696 commented on SEARCHING FOR THE END

    03-18-2010

    Angel ... This one is so sad. The pain of being betrayed and lied too is so tangible... an emotional write that hits close too home. I have a more recent one - not sure if you've read it or not called Dead Silence - it is much in this same vein. Great Job once again! :) Ken

    Poetry is not a turning loose of emotion, but an escape from emotion.

    T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American-English poet and playwright.

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