I have listened to the music
  And have written the lines
I have lived life searching
   for my realm
Shadowed by the white light
   From the depths of suicide
I came back, although
    My wish was not to return
From that journey of self
destruction
I discovered that cavernous depth
    of my subsistence
A humane puzzle of complexity
    That almost took my lifetime to solve
I was a child with no rights
   For wanting to let go
I labored to understand the concept
   Of happiness
A conviction I could not force
    Myself to feel
Until I tried that ceremony of
    Euthanasia
That journey to the Valley of Shadows
    Yet my retreat was denied
After a third time at self destruction
   There came a rebirth of thought
A sudden impact of peace and
    Understanding
I use to question the reason Why
    Now I embrace this new vitality
And have accepted this life
    And there lies this peace
That feathers my Heart.