self loathing

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    • nini2323
    • I once knew everything, and now I know nothing.

    self loathing

    You you are the reason aren't you? The reason I can't live the way I always thought I would you bind me in thoughts that leave me breathless and confused I'm left wondering who is she? Why would she abandon me over and over leave me drowing in water that is as ageless and steady as I once hoped I would be....It's you fault...you left I'm still here but a shell of a life that once held so much promise. I can't feel my heartbeat shallow in my bird basket chest. I should feel it fluttering there beneath the surface.. What if it stopped? What if I'm no longer here...what if I am you. Staring into this mirror only confuses me. I see the cause of all my own experience..and now I realize it...It's you You're me I"m living my life you're living it for me with me you are me and I am suddenly a hundred little me's staring into the broken shards of a mirror in a place where I have imprisoned myself....

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    kochab commented on self loathing

    08-11-2009

    heavy thought in here. well constructed and a great read, stick with it

    origionalmerlin commented on self loathing

    04-06-2009

    good rant.. write on!!!

    poeticdimension commented on self loathing

    03-06-2009

    really enjoyed this!

    maryann72961 commented on self loathing

    03-04-2009

    well expressed and very deep, nice writing

    muttman1 commented on self loathing

    02-25-2009

    I like this a lot can't wait to read the rest of your poems

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    Walt Whitman, American Poet (1819-1892)

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